05/27/2026
Over the last 6 months, I have been moving through several major transitions at the same time, emotionally, spiritually, creatively, and professionally. None of these changes existed in isolation, it was one ⚡️ Tower Moment⚡️ after another. At the center of it was the end of a relationship that I once believed would become marriage. That breakup did not just remove a partner. Part of my grief has been mourning the future I imagined, while another part has been recognizing that the version of myself who tolerated certain abusive treatment is changing. At the same time, I started questioning leadership, trust, and sovereignty within esoteric structures. There was grief there too, because initiation and spiritual community carried deep meaning for me. I pulled back from formal commitments to regain clarity and stabilize my own center. Much of this period has involved asking myself what authentic authority looks & how I can become that. Professionally, my visibility has continued growing while my role has been changing. That fear triggered deeper fears underneath it: 💥 “What if I am no longer needed?” 💥 “What if I lose my value?” 💥“What if the thing that gave me identity changes?” I care deeply about my work and the people connected to it. Yet despite those fears, reality has repeatedly shown me something important: the people around me have continued choosing connection with me. I have experienced kindness, support, affirmation, collaboration, emotional presence, encouragement, and care from friends, collaborators, and clients. At the same time, my external life has also been transforming rapidly. I have been: * preparing for a move, * managing business growth, * teaching, * negotiating contracts, * producing content, * building retreats, * restructuring my brand, * expanding Pythian Mystery School, * carrying public visibility while privately grieving. Spiritually and psychologically, this period also feels tied to a deeper restructuring of identity. I have often felt emotionally stripped down, and yet also more authentic. Around certain people and in certain mom
