22/09/2022
This week whilst having completed my training in sexological bodywork which im celebrating, I’m also sitting with so much physical discomfort after having a double tooth extraction. (note to self: must find better ways to celebrate lol )
Honestly, I have had a lot of dental trauma from the age of 6 and I don’t use that word lightly. I would’ve been happy to never see a dentist again, however, Ive been making a lot of changes in my life, opening to receive new things & experiences and so in order to create space I knew I had to face this aspect of my path. So my intention was to find a private dentist who would care about me as a whole sensory being as opposed to a set of teeth, who happened to have a body attached. Thanks to a great recommendation from my sis I found one.
During the extraction the tears flowed, there was no pain but so much tugging! My legs were flailing around, it was a madness. The dentist was lovely but It didn’t matter, my BODY STILL REMEMBERED. It remembered 6yr old Simone being knocked onto the concrete floor, blood pouring from her mouth, scared sh*tless. My body remembered because the imprints of our lived experiences reside in our nervous systems, our cellular memory. Every dental experience Id ever had flashed before me and the only physical anchor I had was my breath. How ironic that I wanted to escape my body yet in that same moment my body was nourishing me….
Studying s€x bod this year has taken me on a powerful journey deeper into myself, I have met myself & my body in ways I never knew possible. So now the information coming from this vessel of mine feels louder, more potent. As I sit with this current discomfort, I can be present, I can feel gratitude here, I can notice both softness & tension in my body as it heals. Presence with pain, discomfort and intensity is not easy.
Just as experiences build up over time in our fascia & our cells, it takes time, nurture, the right tools and loving attention to hold us as we find our way home. So many of us are journeying back home to our bodies from numbness, from destitute lands of trauma & pain and so heres an invitation to explore below in the COMMENTS ~