03/31/2024
I came back to write these first 3 paragraphs after writing the whole post. I don't even want to hit "post". I have reread it, but I already know my points will be glossed over and I will be berated. WAHH MATT SO LONG! YOU MAD BRO? I already know it's coming haha. My thing is writing. Don't follow my page if you don't expect to put your reading glasses on. Read the pictures first before reading my post.
They are deleting comments and blocking anyone who defends me. I am more having fun with this response than I am actually mad despite my serious tone. I think it's funny they went so hard but also took away my side's Right to reply haha. And they called me cowards...😂 I apologize for saying coward, you'll get why later. They're also hiding behind their page and not their real name. Because of this, I didn't hold back.
Kinda fu**ed up to wake up at 530am on Easter to a friend telling me about this. Then I haveeeee to respond because disrespect like this can't be ignored. What does that say about them? 👀 it's like they're more mad at me than Joe, and my involvement is media related. They had the option of vengeful anger towards Joe or jealous anger towards me, and chose Option B. I think that says a lot about their intentions as a "page" 👀 Aren't we on the same team? 👀
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Happy Easter if thats your thing 🙏 I already know this post is going to get attacked but I don't care at all anymore. It's not the "infighting" that I "don't care" about either. I'll never stop caring about sticking up for myself or taking responsibility and apologizing; whichever is necessary at any given time. What I really don't care about is the internet. Before I get into how this relates to Alex and Joe, let me firmly reiterate that any time I am called "fake" or my integrity is questioned, it infuriates me. I have yet to meet another human who takes radical honesty as far as I do. I feel like my integrity is my number 1 quality and 100% honesty is my code. Anyone who has been following me outside of Alex and Joe knows that. The people who know me in real life trust my word.
I love my followers from the walk, but God damn... I don't know what to do moving forward. I know, Im a broken record at this point. I want to keep in touch with every person I met on the walk for life. I can't just disappear. But I also apparently have different rules than the rest of the internet as far as reporting the fu***ng news? 😂 I'm joking, 99.9% of my followers are with me on this. Im just Lieutenant Dan yelling at clouds right now taking b**g rips 😂
Everytime I think "I could do this idea for the lives" or post about "insert topic here". Without the walk, I don't know what to do. So I do nothing haha. Easy. Anything else will be fake and for the purpose of getting attention. I have 22 thousand followers that I care deeply about offline, and that's a problem most content creators don't have. They don't know their audience. I'm not hunting for content for money. I just want to interact with you guys. Every once in a while, som**hing comes up that I can talk about without being fake and I come back. Like this s**t...
I hate social media (as you can tell by this being my second batch of posts since January 16th, clearly just attention seeking). I started this to document my hobo survival walk not to be famous online. And I've quickly realized I fu***ng hate being famous online. But I do enjoy not being a homeless drug addict or locked up. Which I almost was... Persecute me for that if you like haha. But my "defunct" page is "defunct" on purpose. I'm not gonna fake it.
The first walk ended March 16th and the second one started June 2nd. I posted twice in that time frame. The second walk ended mid October and I posted when I first got home. Again around Christmas/1 year walk anniversary I opened up about my full past. In January I tried to come back online but got sick and quickly realized I was faking it on my dumb morning walks and stopped for 2 months after like 4 days. I then came back with an update about 2 weeks ago to show I'm doing well, and then my phone blows up YOU WERE RIGHT JOE GOT ARRESTED! I called the Celtics trading for Kristaps Porzingis a year early and I overran that victory lap too. Right James Conant ? 😂 it's just my personality and I'm not going to apologize for it. You don't have to like me or read this giant ass bulls**t post 😂
I think this proves that the person I was when I was active daily was authentic and genuine, because as soon as the walk stopped, I stopped. It was never about anything else, and the walk was about survival. My apologies for not just posting up on a corner and giving up. Or worse, turn to criminal activity. Imagine me breaking into random houses or robbing people on the streets at my size, speed, and conflict experience level? I'd be extremely dangerous. But, I genuinely am a compassionate human being.
I will never do anything just for attention. I'm not perfect and I never said I was. I started the walk a trashy piece of s**t homeless m**h addict freshly getting clean. I admitted to shoplifting a s**tload of food too. I plan to donate an equivalent amount to the homeless when I can to pay it forward. I've never denied that, I just waited until I was ready to talk about it. I have released nearly every detail of my life in my writing. Not for attention, and all of it unprovoked; because it helps me live with my mental deficiencies. (I was actually provoked to share my military records because someone accused me of stolen Valor on Walk 1, and now my bank account for the people accusing me of clout chasing). So yes, sure, I can be an off-putting personality to some people. To each their own 🤷♂️ I've lost a couple hundred followers over the drugs, quitting the walk, etc. Take your pick. But everyone else stayed.
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So Matt, why fire back? Can't you just ignore them?!? No, I can't haha. This page is attacking my character because they are upset people are entertaining my bulls**t 🙃 Most people avoid conflict because they're hiding som**hing themselves. I have "8-Mile'd" myself. I had alcohol problems in the Army. You all know about Marinna. I've talked about the drugs, my arrest, the ways I've wronged my family in the past, everything. I stuck to my "no-cause cause" so I could do the walk legitimately without scamming people.
Attached is a screenshot of all this big time 12 dollar a month Facebook money into my overdrafted account, because I'm liquid and have no problem with everyone knowing I'm still broke 😂 (Side note, this money is from 2 random subscribers, if you're subscribed "unsubscribe" haha. I'll bet you 12 bucks one of them is Billy 😂). These have been my circumstances since October 2022. Nothing new, nothing changed. The walk was expensive and so is setting up an apartment 🤷♂️ I still never "asked" for anything.
Fun fact, I started the second walk with 400 dollars and change and made it through month one off donations and my tent until my VA check. That's what I had left after building my cart. And I'm gonna be wealthy again someday. On my own, the honest way. No big nothin 🙏
DISCLAIMER: This is not an invitation to help, I'm just making a point. I have money. I just didn't the last time the deposit hit and I might not next time either. Most of us have been there once or twice. I didn't wake up this morning wanting to tell everyone I'm still paycheck to paycheck, but I'm also immune to embarrassment so Fu**in way she goes haha 🤷♂️
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WHAT THE F**K IS MY PAGE?!? What am I? Am I not a writer? Is a writer with placement and access and new information expected to sit quietly and not provide any opinions, or else they're a meanie selfish as***le? How is this any different than channel 6 reporting on it? It isn't haha 😂 So me firing back, is essentially just a content creator creating content. That's what every post anywhere on Facebook is. The same thing most people on the internet are doing. Why do I have to follow different rules?
This all started back in August. I was in Pennsylvania and heard about Alex Jackson for the first time. I don't know him, but I know Joe well. I went live at 9am that day as I did every day before that. They act like som**hing changed about my page because of Joe haha. On that live I buried Joe for about an hour. I deleted the video after talking with David because I didn't want to tarnish the walk dealing with naysayers. At the time, the walk was all that mattered.
I tactfully asked Mysteries in Maine to delete the short 3 minute video of mine they shared. They replied "no". I replied "cool 👌". Nailed it haha. I felt disrespected but I let it go. We were on the same team against Joe and this person wouldn't respect my desire to protect myself from legal involvement that had been threatened by the delusional Joe supporters haha. I even asked nicely and used no derogatory words. Meanwhile, according to her post, I was "begging" the video be taken down 😂 Does that "cool 👌" look like begging to you haha. She has since blocked me. But I do want to point out that I've already attempted to be the bigger man once prior to this outburst.
In her post, you'll find the words, "drama, abandoned, cowardly, blowing off, begging, attention seeking, defunct, etc." And that's just the first 3 paragraphs 😂 Excuseeeee meeee for talking myself up, but none of those things describe me. Except maybe abandon and blowing off have some merit in other areas of my life. But that's besides the point I'll work on that s**t later haha. Notice my usage of negative vocabulary. It's basically just swears about non specific things. BUT MATT! MAYBE YOU'RE DOING IT INTENTIONALLY RIGHT NOW? Go back and check the old posts. I assure you I argue for my argument, not against my enemy (but also teammate?) 🤔
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So Matt, if you didn't get involved for attention, why did you? And why come back online now and take a victory lap? You are a meanie selfish as***le 🤬😭 Sure. I am an as***le with a very cynical scientific nature-oriented outlook on the world. You aren't going to catch me ever placing emotions over logic. Hence my cold at times attitude toward Alex and his support group. It's not malicious coldness. Anyways:
#1, safety. Joe was still out there and he's dangerous. I wanted him put away. At any time he could kill again. There are about 19,000 people in Windham. Then and now, I had/have access to a larger audience in the area than any other involved page. I also had relevant information to share. It's not rocket appliances... I also got involved in exactly zero other controversies the entire 16 months I've had my page. Thanks Joe haha.
#2, My friends. I have multiple friends, David LeClair especially, who were getting linked to Alex's disappearance and their characters were in question. I vouched for them and if I hadn't, no matter how big or small the circumstances, It would be a breach of my own moral code. I protect my people. Period.
#3, Accountability. I don't believe this situation was handled well at all by all parties involved. I'm entitled to that opinion regardless of how not "PC" it is. Sure, Alex's family deserves adequate space to mourn. But that doesn't mean we should all keep it to ourselves how poorly this was handled. If I were Alex, I'd be disappointed in my support system and law enforcement. The ball was dropped. At least someone finally caught it, but every day you all fought amongst yourselves, Joe could have killed again.
#4, Fun. You all know what I used to do for work. Investigation, patterns, analysis, research, writing, etc. This is all I've done for most of my adult life. I genuinely enjoy putting puzzles like this together. Just like you would be happy if you guessed the exact amount of jelly beans were in your 3rd grade teachers jar; I was happy to see that I completely nailed this whole thing down in about 4 hours. You would be too in my position and if you say you aren't, you're lying haha. I'm just not ashamed by this fact because it's #4 not #1...
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This post would have never happened if this page didn't say anything. Them writing this is funny to me haha.
A person I know killed another person I don't know. I have a page with 22,000 followers. I told everyone about it 7 months ago. People attacked me. The cops didn't contact me. This isn't a movie haha. I provided relevant information that could have been used as circumstantial evidence. A good cop would have cared. A family member who wasn't attention seeking themselves would have cared. "Only thing that matters is Alex".
If thats the case, leave me the f**k alone haha. Take my 3 minute video from August that only exists because you refused to delete it, and delete it 😂 Or do you like having a video with 10k views? At the end of the day, it feels like a disgruntled page owner who just is jealous honestly. But I'll give you the benefit of the doubt that isn't the case 🙏
I have been accused of not caring about Alex. Full disclosure, halfway right. I had no knowledge of Alex's existence until the moment I heard "Some guy is missing from Joe Chutes house". "Some guy" could have been anyone. Israeli troops shot dead two Palestinians yesterday, do you give a f**k? To a degree as a human, I give a f**k as far as instinctual empathy goes. I don't give a f**k in the sense that 150,000 people die every day and natural selection is a thing. Some more gruesome than others. Such is life. For all we know, the real secret to life could be we all keep reincarnating until you are killed by other than natural reasons. That would explain why "God" lets such bad s**t happen if "God" is your thing. My personal experience with death is unique. I view it more scientifically than emotionally. At the end of the day, people I care about, care about Alex. So yes, I care.
Writing is surgical to me. I choose my words very carefully and I understand how one slight difference can change the entire scope of what I'm saying. Because of this, I rarely insult people. I don't speak in generalizations or absolutes without caveats. (See what I did there) 😜 I don't attack a person, I attack their argument. You have attacked me. Notice how I'm only attacking your argument, not you. Please do that if you reply. I would have preferred acting like adults and working it out. Waking up to screenshots of this from my friends where I'm blocked and can't defend myself is super immature haha. As far as I'm concerned, the bad guy is in jail and Alex has moved on hopefully somewhere better. Back to the grind. Who knows when I'll post again. Gotta come up with my next idea to stay relevant 😂 Love you guys, even you Mysteries of Maine 🙏❤️
PS. I didn't go very hard on this for obvious reasons, but Pull my cart even a 10th of a mile before you come talk any s**t about the walk. That goes for anyone. It upsets me how glossed over the physical aspects of the challenge were. I'm a 30 year old drug addict and I pulled a 150 pound wagon 2000 miles across winter summer rain snow and sun. Say whatever you want but don't pretend the walk was som**hing ANYONE could have just gone and done. I earned my page, my followers, my sobriety, my bed, and the food I eat. The walk was amazing, but it was HARD. Cumberland county Maine whippin around in the corolla with the pumpkin spice latte and 2 kids talking about the walk like it's just some easy thing to get rich 😂
It took balls to accuse someone of murder as aggressively, harshly, and publicly as I did in August. If Joe didn't do it, he could sue me. He's dangerous. I put myself in danger by doing that while I'm posting my whereabouts daily online and living outside. Joe could have come after me. I put myself in danger. Sneaking up on me would be tough right? Not on the walk. Think back to how you all met me 😂 An 8 hour drive-by shooting and right back to Maine... I also knew I'd inevitably have to deal with trolls. Though I didn't know Alex, people I'd cry for cried for him. That makes him my business. Shows the character of Alex's support group if this is their reaction the next day, to fight me over who takes credit 😂 Almost like Alex and the two Palestinians are the same in their minds... I've been running through walls my whole life. It's hard to not love yourself afterwards. My confidence is borderline narcissistic. I am aware of this.
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I'm done I promise. I just want to come back to Alex. Because I agree with this page. He is for sure most important variable in this situation. It sucks he has to be involved in this rant. However, this altercation is about disrespect. Not about Alex. One big RIP to Alex and my condolences to everyone who loved him. I once again apologized yesterday for potentially offending his family back in August, but then they share this while I'm sleeping haha. Don't talk 2 pages of s**t about me and then not let me reply. This is what happens...
