04/14/2026
The older I get the more I take listening to my body seriously.
A regulated nervous system = LIFE ✨
There was a time when I would just push through and try harder when my body was screaming at me to slow down.
Feeling like I didn’t have a choice.
Feeling like a break would mean I’m weak.
Feeling like my worth was based on my productivity.
But now I know that couldn’t be further from the truth.
This year I made a promise to myself that I would let go of that conditioning.
I would learn to slow down and listen to my body. To my intuition. To lean into my feminine energy more and ✨flow ✨ … not force 🙅🏻♀️
I know what happens when women live in survival mode for too long.
This is the root cause of inflammation and dis-ease in the body.
First they feel disconnected from themselves and then others, and then it manifests physically and they get sick. It’s predictable.
As women, we are expected to maintain so much.
We are conditioned to put ourselves and our needs last while still ✨appearing and pretending ✨ we have it all together.
Maybe it’s a human thing- not a woman thing. But I’m speaking from my feminine experience.
There’s no room to fall apart.
So I said “f**k that! I’m falling apart.” 😂
I’m surrendering. I’m returning to myself.
Because how dare I try to pour from an empty cup?
My husband and children deserve a soft wife and mother.
A glowing, dress wearing, dancing around the home, playful little girl energy shining through these lines, wrinkles and tiny strands of gray hair making themselves be known.
I’m a homeschooling mama who aspires to be miss Honey but I was feeling like miss Trunchbull more days than I’d like to admit 😣
Wrapped in guilt and shame. The ADHD brain spiraling out of control.
This isn’t the life I chose.
& How dare I want to help teach others things that I haven’t yet fully mastered or ✨truly embodied ✨
Then it hit me again.
The work on myself isn’t finished. And I don’t know if it ever will be. And that’s ok.
I share my journey, not as a master of anything, but as a fellow human being who is winging it and learning as I go. ✨
I had high hopes of working all week to have the farm stand fully stocked on opening day (April 18th) but my body had other plans for me.
She said “you need to return to me. Feel ✨safe ✨ in me again. Regulate your nervous system. Release stagnant energy. You cannot create from the heart while feeling like you’re suffocating.”
So I took a break. And I surrendered. And I found my grace for myself again. And I sat with all my feelings. And I released. And I cried. And I danced.
And just when I thought I could return back to normal and get to work… Mother Nature said “girl sit tf back down. You need to rest some more” 🩸😂
Funny the way it is…
Am I frustrated? Absolutely. There’s so much work to do. I want to do it! I LOVE what I do!
But honoring my body comes first. Taking care of myself so I can take care of family is my #1 priority.
I refuse to run a business on empty.
I refuse to allow myself to get on E again 🙅🏻♀️
Now that I know how to properly care for myself, preventing me from hitting a breaking point 🤍
So if my body is calling me to rest, I’m going to rest.
Because I trust my body.
Because I trust the process.
I know once I’m feeling better in a couple days I’ll be much more productive. And I’ll have the right energy to pour into my work. And I trust that even though it’s Tuesday and I’m taking it easy, by Saturday I’ll have my list done.
I’m not going to stress things like this anymore.
I know that a regulated nervous system is key to being successful, whatever “success” looks like to you, doesn’t matter: it’s key. 🔑
You cannot force your way through life in survival mode and expect things to work out for the best.
They won’t.
So here’s your reminder.
Regulated nervous system > work 🙌🏼
Because the work will still get done because you’re a bad ass - not because you force it, but because your nervous system is regulated and you find your FLOW 😍
& you’ll find yourself again and find your joy in the work and this life so much more, so much faster.
Don’t. Burn. Yourself. Out.
🔥 Your flame is needed to fulfill your passion 🔥
