28/04/2025
Ok ok like 2 weeks ago I said I was gonna elaborate on these past few months soooo here I go! 😆
I’ve already shared with y’all that I have fibromyalgia and some of the lovely symptoms is a very sluggish digestive system. Which led to me developing some highly disrespectful hemorrhoids. So naturally those rebellious blood vessels had to GO! Feb 7th I had them surgically removed and even though I was warned it’s a painful recovery, your girl was not prepared. Ended up in the ER four days after due to complications, thank goodness for Morphine, my bladder had tripled in size so had to address that. So all good right?
Nope!
Now let’s talk energetically shall we, your root chakra is located between your perineum and coccyx. This is your foundation, childhood and parental issues reside here, so if you grew up with a colorful childhood like I did, things tend to be a bit wonky.
I’m no stranger to inner child work, a must for a lot of us to dive into but obviously when you’re good and ready. Anywho I’ve thought well I’ve tackled this aspect of my journey I’m good, I’m healed, I’m over it. 🙄
The f**k I was! 😂
All this sadness, grief and loneliness hit me unexpectedly. Now combine this with the 10+ pain level I’m dealing with, I’m was not OK.
There is something to be said when you’re emotionally aware and you get so good at analyzing the emotions and understanding why and where things come up, that you can trick yourself into thinking the emotions away.
Problem is that we then don’t allow ourselves to experience them and we end up unintentionally burying them further.
That’s what I was doing and oof I had to learn to just let myself marinate in all of this messy uncomfortableness. All the while life was still going on. Navigating a breakup, raising my neurospicy spawn, ( he was my on call nurse had to teach him a lesson in empathy, have y’all ever been at the mercy of a 14yr old? 🫠) running the business etc, those things just don’t go pause.
That’s the reality with healing and dealing, no time frames, move forward as much as you’re able to take it day by day.
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