Nobody without my Demons

12/14/2025

It's been awhile since I posted. I hope everyone is hanging in there during this holiday season ❤️

12/14/2025

07/13/2025

07/13/2025

"I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that." Robin Williams~

I am the type of person that is always trying to make someone laugh. I actually love my twisted sense of humor 😆 I wonder if others who suffer from dysthymia (high functioning depression) are also the type of person to be the class clown or the funny friend?

🎵contains music 🎵

07/06/2025

I found a little joy the evening of the 4th 💜 (along with some really cool fireworks)
This beautiful flowering tree is at our local Culver's. When we were waiting for our food, I was right next to it 😊

06/26/2025

A revamp of one of my old blog posts-

https://wp.me/p8iT6N-5X

06/26/2025

The Dimming Spark

Alone.
Just me and the echoes in this suffocating dark.
Isolated. Yeah, that's the word. Like a broken antenna, cut off from every signal.

I feel too much, you see? Every tremor, every whisper, every goddamn shift in the air.
And it's a burden, right? An exhausting weight for anyone dumb enough to stand too close.
They scatter. They always scatter.

My spirit. Man, it's been a punching bag.
Over the years, the hits just kept coming.
Again. And again. And again.
Too many times to ever fully recover. You don't just bounce back when you're beaten to your core.
There's no full recovery from this kind of war.

I lost my spark.
You remember it? That bright, obnoxious, blinding little thing.
The one that made everything shiny. Made life feel like a carnival ride when I was just a kid.
It hummed. It vibrated. It screamed,
"I'm alive!"

And I let it happen. Yeah, I did.
I let them in. The users. The takers. The ones who saw the light and just wanted to consume it.
They chipped away. A little here, a little there.
Dimmer. Dimmer. Until the flame just flickered out.

And now?
Now I'm just a husk in this quiet, inky black.
Alone. Still.
Isolated. Forever.

06/23/2025

Credit: https://www.facebook.com/share/16KnoAVxpX/

06/21/2025

Never compromise yourself to please others

06/19/2025

Has anyone been experiencing depression since childhood?

👉Where on one hand, you’re so proud of yourself for making it that far and for getting through those dark days…
👉But then on the other hand, you feel like you’re trailing behind others and that you’re not where you should be
👉This is because you were so busy surviving that you weren’t able to envision what you wanted your future to look like and actually plan for that…
👉Often because there was a part of you that didn’t think you’d actually reach adulthood.
👉You were so focused on putting one foot in front of the other you couldn’t see beyond childhood… while others who didn’t have depression at that time could and were able to plan for it

06/18/2025

When your world feels dark, spotting the little joys around you can offer a much-needed spark. Take a moment to look around for something that makes you smile. For me, it's seeing baby animals. But it could be anything: the sound of a waterfall, a blooming flower, a thunderstorm, or your pet doing something adorable. These moments of little joys can brighten even the darkest days.

06/11/2025

Therapy was one of the most helpful tools for me. Success hinges on a strong connection with your therapist. My wonderful therapist taught me effective coping skills I still use daily.