When grief forces alteration causing restructure and oftentimes the battle of altercations within the mind, music is my solace and salvation- supremely my voice that has resuscitated my breath repeatedly. The gift that my beloved mother always reminded me to connect with, as in her words - “a gift from God that I must share. It is not yours to keep.”
I’ve never understood it or taken it seriously as I was a painfully shy kid- I still have my moments. This past summer has been excruciating to watch her transition from being sharp, beautiful, kind, loving, full of love and wisdom, to her descending into trembling in inconsolable pain and fear as the ambulance took her away while she had a stroke right before my very eyes, while her memory slowly faded in and out of consciousness as she struggled for her life to recognize who I was.
Life serves you sentences that can feel so deathly yet inescapable from the present moment that we are constantly reminded of to live. The intertwining of the multitude of experiences this past summer has both plunged and propelled me to straighten up my spine to the heavens even more while trusting my feet is on solid ground. It takes strength, courage, trust and surrender to give birth to our vision. Each one of us has a deeper knowing of what we are called to do and oftentimes it will offend or trigger others. Fear of the unknown, people pleasing, trauma bonding as well as rebellion and overindulgence is the culprit to being suspended in delusion. I have witnessed so many emancipate from the shackles of their own demise only to fall back on their knees to recovery. Following your intuition is the highest order that will initiate the path to YOUR truth. As I recollect myself in rhythm and blues- pun intended, I encourage you to find solace in the beauty of vulnerability, the poetry of pain. P.S thank you @aninebing and @eyeswoon for continually being my inspiration. I am sending so much love and healing to those who are in the tren
Poetry of Pain
“The abrupt call of destiny lies within those who seek their TRUTH “ - ITA
My playground lives beyond the periphery of my comfort zone. Life expands beyond the wildest imagination where I follow my intuition. It often resides in different landscapes, languages and cultures. Where I truly belong within the innermost desire of my uniqueness and authenticity is beneath the veil of my faith. It always takes me -
HOME > IS WHERE THE HEART IS 💝
I AM MY FATHER’S DAUGHTER -
There is a story behind every transformation. The unmistakable resemblance to many is the intensity and the trauma that one had to go through to survive the fire. I rarely speak on trauma because I have no desire to and I do not advocate for trauma bonding. Today is the mark of the finale, the end, closing of a chapter. A distinct one that has heightened the tension, senses and energies in all its delicacies in shaking up my world. Bold, vibrant, loud, tingly, twirly, bitter, honeysuckle and all the in between. Every ending truly marks a beginning, a celebration, a victory, an earthing, an adventure, an innovation, a transformation, an EVOLUTION. I do not live by the ethos or quotes of others. They are mere biography that doesn’t hold my attention for a mere moment. Experiential inner guidance is where I thrive and I’m just getting stared- yet another era, another layer that molds me to embellish in who I am. INTUITION IS MY E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I’m not born this way to convince you how I’m wired just so you get me. I’m here to be UNAPOLOGETICALLY me so you can too…
There is so much I want to share and it’s spilling out of me as I type this and those who are called to their own INTUITION, will feel me bc you will feel YOU. I am my father’s daughter because of the many translations that I experienced with him.
TBC 🥰💕🌺❤️🔥🔥🖕✨☄️🌪️⚡️💥🎤📣
#aquarius #energy #intuition #unapologetic #criticalthinking #grounded #gratitude #healing #healer #og #goddess #abundance #wisdom #rebirth #death #spiritual #medicalmedium
tHEARTofLIFEworthLIVING
is a radical choice to take it all in. In all its fullness and glory, it’s entirety and inadequacies , it’s cycles and pauses, it’s polarity and parallelism, it’s depth and shallowness, it’s pain and beauty. Allowing dead weight to no longer reside within your body, mind & spirit requires radical self evaluation, accountability, awareness and grounded practice in the culmination of being HUMAN(ITY). Oftentimes, we get in a forceful determination that eventually disrupts our ability to discern between longevity and impulsivity, between SPIRIT & HUMAN. Essentially, energy governs all aspects of our lives. Without real authentic inner vitality, it regurgitates into chaos - unstable, unpredictable- specifically, countless rude awakenings that is UNNECESSARY. PseudoSpirituality laments excessively on “doing the work”, “constant healing”, forgiveness”, “learning lessons through the journey” and “being a spiritual being having a human experience”. It has a rampant tendency to subtly promote bypassing, false rituals that only leave you suspended short lived in your cycle of unresolved wounds and trauma, and most of all, gaslighting you to self sabotage. The TRUTH is rare that falls deaf on trends and cultural appropriation. NO, you do not need to keep burning your palo santo, sage or play with crystals and spells in order for you to heal! External negative energy is a direct consequence of your internal negative dialogue. Accepting life through the lens of compassion and empathy is an ongoing process and skill that will inherently sharpen our INTUITION and in turn dissipate what needed learning and letting go of. Life is INTUITIVE. It ebbs and flows. Just like you and I. Cycles that complete the infusion of all the complexities and intricacies that makes us UNIQUE. Feed yourself only with nourishing thoughts and organic foods. It will electrify your life and purpose! FOOD FOR THOUGHT. ❤️🔥
#organic #wisdom #spiri
NEW MOON IN LEO
THE ART OF SELF DEVOTION
AS YOU LEARN TO RELINQUISH THE OLD AND TRADE IN FOR THE NEW,
PRACTICE SUMMONING THE KNOWING WITHIN. NOTHING OUTWEIGHS THE TRUST OF ONES OWN INNER WISDOM.
THE INTUITIVE IMPULSE THAT WILL NEVER LEAD YOU ASTRAY.
THE ART OF SELF DEVOTION REQUIRES TUNING OUT THE NOISE AND MOST CRUCIALLY, LISTENING INTENTLY TO THE INNER GUIDANCE. SELF INDULGENCE IS A PREREQUISITE TO THE MAGIC. CONTRARY TO SOCIETAL BELIEF, WE ARE OFTEN DISCOURAGED TO BE BOLD, LOUD & PROUD. IN THIS LEO SEASON, ONLY THE BRAVE WILL CONQUER NOT FOR THE CAUSE OF OTHERS BUT TO TRULY SHAMELESSLY IMMERSE IN YOUR OWN BRILLIANCE, GIFTS & UNIQUENESS.
THERE IS NO SPACE TO FEIGN MEDIOCRITY AND THE MUNDANE.
IF YOU GOT IT, FLAUNT IT 🔥💥☄️⚡️🌙
Poetry of Pain.
Dealing with trauma is inevitable yet how we transmute it into alchemy is key. My salvation is ART. Photography, Videography, Poetry, Singing, Creativity, Giving back to others. Giving to myself. Slow living. Breathing. Pausing. Grieving. Allowing. Surrendering. Being HUMAN. What is yours? For those who are going through pain, my heart is with you.
💔💜💔💜💔💜💔
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
ANAIS NIN
#poetry #anaisnin #wisdom #emotionalintelligence #energy #spirituality #artist #truth #evolution #freedom
Facing Evil with Maya Angelou.
Mercury retrograde calls for all the “RE”.. rewrite, rewire, realise, recall, recalibrate, reiterate, reinforce, redirect, reduce, renew, reinvent, rest, refresh, return, ....
you get the gist of it. What one must absolutely understand is the need and control for everything to fall into place is not only false but dangerous and damaging . Learning to accept what is does not mean you condone or lose control. Magical thinking simply distorts the heart of its authentic mechanism which beats and operates to the rhythm of love and forgiveness. Simply skipping the inevitable pain in order to bring forth joy will only stunt the growth of true wisdom and ones evolution. Surrender to a higher divine orchestration. Let it lead you to your breath that knows only love will transcend evil.
