08/03/2024
We sometimes think that healing eludes us and it is hiding in the darkness. It is usually right there! We need to pay attention and tune in!
When my mother was transitioning, I experienced so much grief and overwhelming emotions. I had no idea what to do with it all. I ran to the woods and to the water to seek something- anything to calm my frazzled nervous system. I wanted to escape the pain. I ventured off the trail and found a quiet spot away from other humans. I sat on a rock that hovered out a little bit over the edge of the water. My mind was racing and my heart was beating fast. I needed to cry but it wouldn’t come. I never felt so alone in all my life.
I wanted to cry out in anguish, frustration and desperation, but my voice was silent. I drew my legs up, I wrapped my arms around my legs, and I put my head on my knees. I began to breathe in sync with my heart beat, and I slowly calmed myself down. When I raised my head, I realized I was not alone. A frog sat at the base of my feet another to the right rear of me and another to the left rear of me. They formed a pyramid of healing energy around me. I was grateful, yet, I was in total disbelief. They came to me to sit with me and to remind me that I am never alone because I am nature - nature is always healing. The frogs held space for me as I cried and released. I felt cared for, protected and loved. They sat with me until I felt ready to get back on the trail. I was strong enough now to face my pain and assist my mother in her passing.
To this day, the frogs appear to remind me they are here, and I am not alone. Their presence reminds me that healing surrounds us. We just need to pay attention.
This frog sat with me this morning as we gave gratitude to the rising sun and the possibilities of the new day.
What appears beneath the surface for you when you need healing? Look with intention, and you, too, will find that you are not alone. Healing is right there.