10/01/2024
October is my favorite month of the year. The leaves start to change colors. The weather shifts and there’s a great morning cool crisp in the air. We can be outside without being miserably hot or cold. Evening fires outside feel different. The stars shine differently. In my life, love is celebrated with every passing year with my Sweetie, as we celebrate another year together. During the fall, we start to prepare for the holiday season and get cozier. The changes that come in the fall all feel comfortable. Unlike Springtime, when things wake up and life takes on an exciting pace and energy, fall brings peace and slowing down. The world settles a bit. Everything feels different and, for me, this change is reinvigorating.
The month of September 2024 was really bad this year. Heavy in so many ways. Old hurts resurfaced. Old traumas once forgotten raised up and were front and center, haunting me in ways I had long since worked out and moved beyond. Loss screamed out from the shadows and took me by surprise. Reminders of things long left in the past were everywhere.
But, October brings me a reminder of the truth of things changed, old that has been gone and washed away for a long time, and the chance for healing. The things that go dormant in the fall will come back to life - better than ever - in the Spring. Yes, we will walk through heartache, pain, loneliness, and heaviness but, like the seasons, everything changes. We will see something new come after the darkness. The crisp in the air that encourages us to huddle up, dig in and rest, will lead the way to a new awakening and a new fire, where we can spread our wings again, take a deep breath, find renewed strength and energy. We heal through rest. Fall is rest. God is good and, today, October 1, I’m focusing on the Goodness of My Father in Heaven, my Creator, the Author and Perfector of my story. This year, as the trees turn, it will tell a different story for me, and I will be reminded of the possibility that God will continue to be glorified by all of it.