10/03/2024                                                                            
                                    
                                                                            
                                            I normally only show the good or I try to anyways. BUT today just SUCKS! I am over being a freaking cancer patient! 😤 
Had my appointment with my oncologist today and my body isn't cooperating. My bone marrow isn't producing the white blood cells I need. It's causing fatigue, diarrhea, a fever blister from 4 weeks ago to not heal, mouth sores to where I don't want to eat and so much more! 🙄
So the solution? I get to have Nuelasta shots TWICE A WEEK NOW! I am just pi**ed! I hate them!! I get so sick with it, the bone pain is unbearable and if you know you know..... IT SUCKS. 🙃
I am so blessed now I get to go to the clinic every Monday for bloodwork, every Tuesday for chemo, every Thursday for the shot and every Friday now for the second shot! I walked out feeling so f'ing defeated, so f'ing over cancer and just want to be normal!! 
So I came home to the most supportive husband a girl could DREAM of having!! He held me, he cried with me and then I showed him the trunk where I had gone and bought another Christmas tree!!! 🎄😬 🤷🏻♀️  
I know this pity day will come and go! If you know someone going through this, my biggest advice is to not ask them how they are feeling or doing.... ask them anything about their life other than cancer because if they are like me, I am f'ing over talking about it!! 
Let this PSA reminder be .... check yourself! Get your screenings because this little club I am in although it has really cool people in it, it's not one you want to be a part of!!