04/08/2024
RAW TRANSPARENCY POST:
If you know ME, Ki, you know I am a very closed booked. I don’t share much of myself with anyone honestly, not even my close family. I’m the rock. I try to fix and make s**t better, I hold it down. That’s what I do and who I am. But this time I gotta do it for me.
In 2011 I lost my first pregnancy that I wanted and was excited for real bad!
After the loss I was diagnosed with Endometriosis and a couple other complications and as a result, I was told carrying babies of my own would be nearly impossible. That shook me to my soul…BUT GOD! 🙏🏾 7yrs later I was blessed with my baby boy , however his new life came with complications due to my inability to carry full term. He came at just 26weeks, 1lb.
Between the 7yrs it took me to conceive again, I’ve had a very painful journey no one knew I was on. Being intimate almost always hurts, being on or off my period hurts and hell, sometimes just waking up on the wrong day hurt. The pain was intense but after a few hrs or even 24hrs it would usually cease. This past week it did not.
I’ve been working through excruciating pain and no one has known. No one knows how I go home and curl up in a ball and cry from the pain. I get up the next day, shake it off and get back to work. This week I just couldn’t take it. I’ve been admitted to the hospital for 24hrs now and found I have a nice size endometrial cystic growth on my fallopian tube and left o***y. PAINFUL AFFFF!! 😩 I’m finally getting some help for myself though. With that being said, I don’t know where this leaves me in terms of my business right now.
IM ALL ABOUT MY BUSINESS, after my son ofc! I am FTL❤️and FTL❤️ is me. My clients mean everything to me and the reputation I’m building for my brand. It’s not perfect but it’s mine and I been doing it all on my own.
I need my clients, OG’s, new bae’s, loyal bae’s, potential bae’s to know I love and appreciate you all. This week I’m down and I’m coming to terms with being content about it. I will contact any clients booked this week as soon as possible and move from there. Thank you for reading if you did. This was hard af for me to do🥺🙏🏾