12/10/2024
It’s important to remember that humility is not debasement. It is not grinding yourself down in the hopes that some person or maybe even some god will take mercy upon you in your pitiful state. To me, humility is taking what you are given and using it and then acknowledging that it was given to you because you “tuned” into it…you opened yourself to it and that’s why you’re experiencing it.
Each of us is a transmitter as well as a receiver. In a way, everything is already here just waiting our recognition of it. Strange word, recognition, it literally means to “re-know.”
I sat on the edge of my bed this morning talking myself into doing what I’ve done since February of 2023 and that is to take as cold of a shower as I possibly can. Some days the water is 65 degrees. Today it was about 43. I really didn’t want to do it today. I wanted a warm shower. I wanted some kind of external comfort and yet I knew that if I just acquiesced and took a warm shower instead of a cold one, I would’ve been disappointed in myself because with me, I’m always pushing invisible limits and invisible boundaries. In truth, there are none but it’s my belief in them that makes them so. I guess, like all things in the world, I like to quantify things in my mind - which strangely (or not so strangely) enough is also invisible.
It’s from the vast, limitless invisible that I’m always pulling things forth from. Like I said, it’s all here, I’m just re-knowing it in time and time will make sure to restrain things and keep them limited and finite even though behind each thing is the boundless intelligence that is unlimited and then some.
I talked myself into the cold shower. I danced and I pranced and breathed my way through the whole 12 minutes and I felt good. That’s why I do it. It feels good. That’s why I do anything; it feels good and maybe goodness is at the heart of it all. Maybe all these ideas get filtered through an imperfect filter and it’s not the original transmission that is “bad” or “faulty” but it’s in our receiving of that broadcast.
And that’s what keeps me humble. I’ve been given things to use, to experience, to witness, and to behold. More than ever before I am happy to be me. I am happy and grateful for every experience that I’ve tuned into. I used to think that my mother’s passing away was the biggest existential threat to my psyche and yet it’s given me the ability to really know and feel that Love really does allow for all things but you just gotta be open and even if you don’t stay open, just make the attempt again and again and again.
I recognize you. That’s what I want you to know. I may not know everything that you’ve been through but those things are just frivolous details. I recognize your heart, your spirit, your soul because I recognize you as my mirror. The only way we can really see ourselves is in another.
Keep your signals as clear as you can by learning to recognize what is yours and only yours - not to fix, or change, or manipulate into being yours - but through the simple re-knowing that nothing has ever separated you from it.