08/15/2025
Uranus in Gemini has me writing again and it’s coming at a time where I need it the most 🌱
I recently started therapy again and for the first time ever, it’s all about me — no external stressors or familial conflicts, just me and my own internal workings and landscapes.
it’s been pretty dark in there for a while now & in order to let some light in, I had to be very truthful about my own experiences and stop downplaying my symptoms. this led to a diagnosis of Complex PTSD.
even now, as I type this, I can still feel the resistance to admitting it’s truth. for all the various reasons, I felt admitting to having triggers, flashbacks and panic attacks almost every morning brought me so much shame.
shame and embarrassment around feeling like I should have the tools necessary to “help myself”. shame around the coping skills I’ve used to survive and numb myself. shame because somewhere, somehow, someone had/has it worse than I do.
through this dark night of the soul, I’m grateful to be leaving in The Star card and leaning on the support I have from the energetic realm and beyond. They help me remember my purpose here, and so much of that purpose is to bring healing to the collective through transformation, transmutation and vulnerability.
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In light & the necessary shadows we must sit in to find it,
Ca’ren 🌟✨🤍🕯️