11/18/2024
Visual Diary of a Threshold.
On this last day of Pluto in Capricorn, I offer a Deep Bow to the Mystery. 🪽🌌🌊
Here I find myself again,
Quietly letting tears fall as I
Gaze out the window of an airplane
At a sunset I will never see again.
In rapture, overcome by the incomparability
Of Her Oneness.
In everything, I see Her
Our sameness in our singularity.
I follow the Thread,
Lost in the Labyrinth of our own
Becoming.
Perhaps the point is never to be found.
Perhaps it is to give ourselves to the dance.
How would I live my life,
If not seeking a way out,
But rather, deeper in?
They say at the center of the Labyrinth
Lives a Great Monster.
I have seen it for myself,
In the shame of my desire.
To be turned inside out by life,
To follow Eros as a life-giving wellspring,
To dance wild with the Maenads,
Drunk in Ecstatic Bliss.
Perhaps the Minotaur is the innocence
Of everything we’ve shamed.
Deep in the center of the Heart,
Our true nature reveals itself,
A thread to follow deeper inwards.
I walk into a bookstore & open to a page
That tells me everything about myself.
Stripped bare by a mirror of words,
The contour of my life begins to form.
I find solace in sorrow,
Comfort in depth.
I want to live an honest life.
Isn’t that what this has all taught me?
In the faces of my beloveds
I am home.
I don’t need many, just the juiciest deep wells
To sink my heart into.
I come alive in the depth
Of those that seek meaning
In the unseen.
Artists, seers, healers, feelers,
Mystics in modern drag, finding ways to
Get Free.
As I step across threshold,
I pick up pieces of myself.
I take off the apprentice’s jacket,
The one I’ve worn for 18 years,
So eager to master the world.
Revealed in my simplicity,
I find true wisdom in listening.
Humbled, silent, aching for
A Quiet Life…
Perhaps it’s a sign I know myself
More deeply,
In the yearning to make space
To hear the Ancestors more clearly.
I am seeing myself
Takes shapes I never dreamed —
A Woman Grown, a Mother Growing.
Head bowed in service & gratitude,
Humbled by what will always be
So much bigger than just me
I give Myself to Great Mystery.
I hear she has bigger plans for me,
More than my mind could ever see 😉