Love Naturally

05/01/2023

Thanking God for allowing our Mom to reach her 65th year.🥳

03/28/2023

Can't say this day is forgetful, probably more painful with this being my 1st anniversary of a different loss, but I'm hoping it's my last cry. It's been 6 years, and I part of me cried wondering if she'd even be thinking about me if the situation was in reverse or if she'd be doing as she should...living. She'd know there's nothing she could do for me except live WELL and FLOURISH! To PROSPER away from the nonsense...Sulking and stagnation were not options.🏃🏾‍♀️
Quesadilla para dia de los Mu***os and I got some ice cream because I needed to celebrate life too. My cousins JR and Noah's birthdays are today.

02/15/2023

Happy Extra L🩷VE Day

01/01/2023

Without Barbara Walters there wouldn’t have been me—nor any other woman you see on evening, morning, and daily news. She was indeed a Trailblazer. I did my very first television audition with her in mind the whole time.

Grateful that she was such a powerful and gracious role model.

Grateful to have known her.

Grateful to have followed in her Light.

01/01/2023

I have reached 700 followers! Thank you for your continued support. I could not have done it without each of you. 🙏🤗🎉

12/31/2022

Happy New Year's Eve...

10/22/2022

After going with me to my doctor's appointments, my Momma took me to the movies and out to eat with my oldest nephew... Presence is powerful. Glad she made it safely and back home.

10/22/2022

🦁Week 23po was the first time I wasn't alone for a doctor's appointment.
💙My Momma accompanied me.
🦁People use cliché sayings that "all you need is God."
💙When we go alone enough, most who have intelligent awareness recognize & realize that Presence & Proximity are powerful.
🦁There's a higher reason why we're not designed to be alone all of the time. I tried to play with poses, but the exam was stressful😭. 1/4 done...
🤗Much better doctor!!!
💙Got that Advanced Healthcare paperwork turned in too...
🦁💙🦅All I need now is to outlive my furbabies so all that's left is me when my time comes.

10/16/2022

Last night, we ended after 9pm. Today, day 3, we started at 7:45a pst... Finishing what I started. Just gotta get this recovery journey under control so I can fully complete EVERYTHING! I'm overdue.

10/14/2022

Completing my commitment...
Thankful for a healthy tray versus the one that I had intitiated...
Day 1

10/13/2022

Ever have someone who KNOWS they are absolutely WRONG, refuse to acknowledge, AND try to convince you that you don't matter (OR set you up)?
For 11 years, I've been fighting...
It use to be 2 of them attacking me.
To them, I wasn't a "mother" so of course I knew nothing.
Today, she purposely stood by, and over, me and stated,
"Nobody..."..My pages are public...

As I held my phone waiting to exit the premises, I heard it take this first picture.
The second one, I looked and questioned who fights for this Love...For Me? They don't, but I will. I choose you! I want you Jessie!
💣

10/13/2022

Everytime I see one of these, makes me wish even more that I knew my tribes personally... Though they've changed forms, study to know various cultures... Sometimes I miss being in the public classroom.
Do you know why the Ojibwe people started

10/10/2022

Ride back...It's been an adventure...Today's a 6 hour day. Glad God didn't want my eyes to see a woman potentially lose her life for being careless with pulling out into oncoming traffic with her cute 2 door silver Mercedes, my driver left space between us and a car in front of us, and a guy was alert to use that space to turn away from hitting her. Got there late, but had my appointment.

10/10/2022

I have a ride.
I don't have every known trouble.
I'm safe...
Unfortunately, I'm late.
When you have been on your ride for over an hour and they make you late...again... Hopefully I get seen.
My foot hurts.
Cheers to another 5 hour appointment day...
My recovery journey is for the

10/08/2022

💙Almost time to wash again.
🦁I know, it be looking like I'm wearing the same one everyday like the dresses...🤣
💙Maybe I should have gotten 15 grey and 16 black...😅 ❣️

10/02/2022

How many of us have had one or two of these “bars!”
Grow allergic…
This is some bull💩 truth that most of them want you to deal with. 🛑
Let’s see if this will delete out of my phone today like I tried last night!!!!

09/20/2022

💙19wpo Great God, lookie here...
🦁"Wrong" move in bed hurt like💥 & I was glad that I had no voice to scream, but throat is on 🔥cause I tried.
💙Today I reflect on the realization of just how badly triggered that doctor's appointment had my mind all last week!
🤯Last night, I'm REVIEWING one of my classes to polish notes & finish/post as much of my overdue assignments anyway.
🤯LISTENING again, & hearing the words "former NBA player/played" again, & seeing his name again, I paused like, "Wait. Cuttino, Cuttino? Cuttino Mobley, Cuttino?" 🤦🏾‍♀️Realize I was in a zoom training with someone I watched...and been following! Cat
🤯Then, see that before Trent CALLED my name Saturday, SHOWED my name during the week! I was looking at it live and TOTALLY missed it until last night.
💙Lord, forgive me.
🦁After declaring my name is about to be called, it's time, & so much more that's coming, this is the most disorderly mind I've ever had. Not cool.
💙In the midst of these 3-5 hour rehab days, excruitiating agony, confusion, delays, etcetera, I will execute what is in my possible.
🦁💙🦅
Opened up to the bird.
1st thought, they don't worry about what they'll eat/drink/wear.
2nd, they will land on a branch with FAITH it will hold them. If not, they use what they have to remove themselves from what doesn't positively serve them. ❣️

09/19/2022

This month has been a deeper journey into . A lot of my investments are time conflicting, but I'm going to finished what I started.
Every delay works in my favor. God's continuing to protect me to promote me.

09/18/2022

💙Team Love, you have been riding on this journey for a while.
🦁As often as I've said, "Better is the end of the wrong thing..."
💙These last 18 weeks have been a "falling apart" like none before a.d prayerfully none to come.
🦁You haven't seen everything, but I've shown a lot.
💙I don't know the plans, still, I believe there's a greater purpose coming.
🦁Now, I don't know if was directly talking to me today when he called, "Jessie" twice out of 16,000 people from 162 countries.
💙Many cried. I had to stay composed.😅
🦁I have a peculiar purpose, so I took it personally. I must finish. His reminders:
💙1."Win the moment."
🦁2."Sometimes it takes certain things falling apart for better things to fall into place. It's all working out for your good. Don't give up." ~Trent Shelton
🦁💙🦅Thanks, Trent. Happy 3rd Birthday, Marlee. 🎂
❣️

09/16/2022

💙One, 16,000 partipants for the next 3 days (6:30a-4p, -6p, & -3p.
🦁I'm in room 11 this time (8 the last 6 weeks) No recording or replay.
💙The other, I can watch the recording.
🦁The challenge comes when you have more than one commitment to attend and they conflict...again.
💙I'm doing a lot, I know.
🦁There's a reason...
💙It's coming.
🦁💙🦅Even delays work in my favor.
(T.E.E.A.C.H.A.A.) ❣️

09/11/2022

💙"Jessie"
🦁Hmm?
💙"You need to do your hair."
🦁I don't feel like washing & doing my hair.
💙"CAN you though?"
🦁Ugh. All rightttt. I think I got one wash...
🤗I usually do 2 washes & a conditioner...
💙🦁🦅 My talks with God...💙🦁🦅
Friday...
💙"Get up"
🦁Hmmm? I just...
💙🤕😮‍💨🤪🤗 So............
💙Early call asks me if they can pick me up to take me to therapy...
🤯I really wanted to say "No."
🦁Not feeling the best, but I need to take what I can get.
💙Vehicle is a struggle. Driver started out impatient.
🦁Pain increased...Hit hard.🤯
💙Driver's empathy grew.
🦁My stop came. Driver offered assistance.
💙What happened next was only by God's work...
🦁Thanks cuz for my rollator and cushion. I'm not fast enough for it yet, but I needed it. selflove

09/05/2022

Blessed to experience various dishes to help my recovery. Sometimes, I don't remember what I'm eating, but eh.
No telling when, or if I'll ever have the desire to cook again. Might be time to start thinking about budgeting a chef.

09/05/2022

From shift! Freedom and wealth,
See how far you can go, then keep going. Someone's counting on you to lead the way to a better life...

09/02/2022

💙Trying to work on all of these projects, but the pain...Took 3 pain pills last night & in bed at 8:00.
🦁Hello today. Another second look of, "Why am I in so much pain right now?!"
💙"Third wondering look of "will I ever really know days without agony versus how I was always pretending before?!"
🦁Questioning self, do I have strength to do my hair today or just wash my face, brush my teeth, and dress?
💙First thought, "God, I woke up in this world today. I have to do something constructive. Help me so I don't waste time."

09/02/2022

💙It's not a whoa/why me. I have a right to be tired AND know I have work to do...🦁I own & admit where I am.

09/02/2022

🙃It's such a struggle to get out to my doctor's appointments.
🙃I don't even want to go anymore, but to get to the office & the only way I can get in it was
💙I was an hour early...
🦁Until I called, no one told the office.
💙People were blessed to take the stairs
🦁I called transportationto come get me..
💙While waiting, elevator got fixed. Told me to go up. "Thank you for telling us the elevator was out of order."
😵‍💫I'd called transportation to come.
💙Transportation, you have 5 minutes before I leave & Result, I won't come back afterwards.
🦁I got stranded. 106 degrees & I could feel myself in jeopardy. Looking through my phone to see who I believed was off, available, & I could pay $20 just to come get me. Who's been here? 🥺
😮‍💨Download Uber.
💙God, I stood so long that I bent your grass. Sorry. I'm still working to keep me together. I'm crying.I'm tired. I don't want to go to my appointments.
🦁Nevertheless, I'm in September. I'm still fighting to hold on and thrive.
🦅This pain must pay me!🦅

08/31/2022

💙16 wpo =4 appointments in 5 days
🦁Do you know what it's like to want to talk and not be able to? 🙃😶‍🌫️
💙My speech therapist helped me determine the original origin versus just the intubation aggravation.
🦁Having to relearn how to talk again is another process in this new recovery journey.
💙Got some much going on, but it may be time to look into too.🤷🏾‍♀️ 🦁Anyway, she said I'm making progress.
💙Medical transportation much better, just hecka early.👍🏾

08/28/2022

Mindfulness.

08/26/2022

Happy International Dog Day!
💙Some of my boys...
💙Negussie Tre' Love, 14 years.
💙Pauncho Bratman Love, 8 years.
💙Rock Big Baby Love, 1 year.
🐕🥰 To all of my other dog-babies too.

08/25/2022

💙Lookie here. Now see... Thankfully, my Unc S. went to get my mail for me, then I start going through it...
🦁In ALL my years of public school teaching and coaching, I NEVER received something about vac's for children.
💙This pretty little girl.
🦁This is the kind of 💩 that could push me back down that very deep and dark hole & just say, "F it. I'm beyond tired. This sucks 🔥💩. I quit."
💙I ain’t saying I'm all right. My dream died. It's a continuous fight to transform from childless to CHILDFREE.
🦁The triump? I ain't balliing.
💙This ain't no short stop or quick run.
🦁Processing, Adjusting, & Progressing.
💙A torturing test. I won't rip it apart, but it's 🗑 🚮.
🦁Working to trust this new dark-feeling 🎭🎢 lifelong evolving.
💙Not giving up on me ...
🦁God will help me get paid for this pain.
💙There's a reward coming.
💙🦁🦅💙Class ✅️ today.

08/23/2022

15wpo Woke up to a late night text from the cousin who checks on me.
🦁💙God, a smooth day?
😶‍🌫️8:30 ride to 🗣therapy.
🤕🥺Inconsiderate driver. I got hurt...
🙌🏾Sometimes I wish I could just drive myself.It may be time to say 'screw it' & take that chance. Let me hurt ME.
😣Same driver back. Complains 2 my other medical transport about patients. "They think we're chauffeurs. Yell at me cause I won't go through a drive-thru." "Right! Or they want you to go to the grocery store."
👂🏾🤬No. Maybe it's because we don't get out. Maybe they want to FEEL a SENSE of normalcy. There's a nice way to remind them that you aren't able to go there.
👀"You look like you're in pain."
🦁My spirit wanted to rip someone apart.
😡Neither of these busters should be driving medical patients.☻️
🤷🏾‍♀️ God...
📲 Incoming. You need to see someone about your 🗣 because...
😑Caller assumes I'm doing nothing.💔
💙Shower, wash hair, & incoming 📲 🤗 oldest Great Aunt.
😭🗣I break. My first hollering cry.😭
🌍Spinning, crashing, & wanted to 🏃🏾‍♀️ away. She cried with me.
❤️‍🩹"My goodness....You're....Hold on... You're going to be all right......"
💙"I know, Auntie.😭 I'm going to color & watch 🖥 😭if needed. Eat. I'm still here..
❤️Be empathetic for you don't know the strength someone had to have to keep themselves alive & going.🤗

08/23/2022

It is a blessing to get to experiment all kinds of twists. Chilli beans, rice, and topped with sour cream. 🤤 Yes, I had vegetables too...

08/21/2022

This sight ain't new. The question is, what will people say at my (your) funeral? How true will they speak? Good, bad, indifferent, hate, love, consistency, abandoned...
Sometimes, God doesn't say a WORD...
honesty.

08/14/2022

💙Even when it FEELS like it, with God YOU are never alone!
🦁Don't self-sabotage and tear down everything God's help you build just because the hedge is temporarily down. 💙Keep going.
🦁God's always there. 💙Reach.
🦁💙🦅💎🦁Even though this is the hardest position I have EVER been in, and I pray this is the hardest, I refuse to go out!
💙I will not d*e, but rejoice for what's here and what's to come.
🦁Restoration loading.
💙Warriors welcomed.
🦁There are no punks allowed.

08/11/2022

Late birthday gift. No Luigi's this time. About to put all 7 pounds back on me... Food for the next 2 or 3 days😅. Cute card.

08/10/2022

08/09/2022

💙13 wpo and ot still ain't "easy."
🦁Found some concerns, alerted a witness, then shrugged them off.🤦🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️
💙Contined opening mail from my post office run from Friday.
🦁Opened up mail that broke my heart...💙Opened up more mail that pi**ed me off.
😮‍💨Wished I'd continued on Friday instead.
😭😭😭😭😭
🦁While crying, Dre' my brother, called. See, he's in prison, so that call ain't like other folks that can. He'd called on my birthday & I'd shared part of my upcoming book release with him. Info I'd NEVER helped him SEE.
💙Today, the call was to let me know he FELT what I shared. He got it and...............
🦁I listened.
💙I cried.
🦁I prayed.
💙I showered and put this gift on.
🦁God... 🙌🏾
💙I went through more mail & found my Victoria Secret card. They've never missed sending me a birthday card in nearly 30 years.
🦁 💙🦁

08/08/2022

I made it to Forty-Fine (49).
It ain't what I desired, but I'm here.
Spiritual Birthday Love to my twin Bro.