09/14/2023
This last year of my life has been hell. The hardest, worst, debilitating…yet, most exceptional year ever. The suffering and pain that got me into this space I am in today was worth it.
I went through losing my first daughter, Maple. My beautiful life partner of 15 years, my ride or die, my dog, my everything. She saved my life more times than I can count, simply by being her. I got her when I was 18 years old, and lived my entire adult life with her by my side. When I lost her, I lost myself.
I went through 2 beautiful and hard as f**k breakups. One with a love that knew me. One with a love that held me. Both beings were exceptional in their own way. Love is a strange thing, especially when you love as big and hard as I do. It gives you clarity. It gives you the medicine you need to move beyond union into sovereignty. And it gives a lot of pain as well…but worth every f**king second.
There was SO much weird bu****it in between. All so hard. So painful. So life shaking. So unstabling. So rough.
I am here now, writing on the other side of the hole I trenched myself into. I am back, upgraded, switched on, turned on, ready to concur, ready to open, ready to be seen, heard, felt, desired, admired, and honored. I am in full expression of my feminine nature, something Ive been looking for for so long. She’s here. She’s alive. She’s dancing in the mirror honoring her magnetic beauty and love that exudes out of her. I am proud and in awe of who I am and what I feel.
This is an ode to this last year. To myself. To remind me of how f**ked life can get, it always gets better when you surrender to the suffering and LEARN fro the lessons that are given.
I will be more present in this platform of showing myself and leaning into the life I have curated for me. I have found my structure and rituals that work for me on a daily, and I am very proud to say I am actualizing them easefully. I feel like this is my diary to the world of being seen and heard. And, this last year is a big part of my story.
My thanks are continuing in the comments, if so inclined to read. ❤️🙏🏽🕉️
