10/04/2019
In such a good season right now! I have been enjoying my growing boys so much this week! Now that I work with pregnant and new parents, I keep thinking how much easier it was to troubleshoot my way through parenting when breastfeeding fixed everything. 🤷♀️ If I had known the power struggles we would have through the years, I never would have weaned them! 😂 But maybe that’s why we have been able to maintain such a great relationship, who knows? 🤷♀️One of the biggest gifts of having older kids is their ability to call me out when I am WRONG. When they were younger, I could get myself in whatever bad mood I wanted when things didn’t go as expected. Now, I have them telling me to focus on the positives (seriously, Chaz said that today as we charged through Target to buy new shoes on the way to school because he had left his only pair at the in-laws mistakenly- for those of you who know Chaz!😱), don’t worry too much about it, it’s really not that big of deal, is it really that important?... So many things I need to hear but don’t always want to hear in the moment. I thought my job as a parent was to keep them from escalating to tantrums, but it turns out I have just as many tantrums that need to be de-escalated. Really, something I never expected about parenting is admitting my faults. Ha! So important for the kids to see and hear me asking for forgiveness. Thanks for the reminder in church recently.
But truly, I just want to say God has brought me to a season of my heart singing! (The spring blooms certainly help!) But I think it is a perfect mix of spending all Fall and Winter in Emotionally Healthy Spirituality (the book and devotional), my current Identity study, some new revelations in my marriage, spending time in prayer and reflection, worship, jumping into a passion in birthwork I have been waiting a long time for, and SLOWING IT ALL DOWN. Sigh. Totally needed all of that. Thank you, God. You are a good, good Father. Hope you all know that today too.
