12/20/2024
β€οΈ Dearest community,
Iβm taking a pause.
Many of you know that I have spent the last several years being a busy busy bee, offering dances, womenβs programs, teen programs, ceremony, wilderness journeys, backpacking, etc.
It was a very fulfilling journey, and truly felt like my soulβs work.
However, in the past year or so, I have started to feel a call to pause. I ignored this call for a while. In some ways I did pause- I stopped DJing and offering dances. But in many other ways I didnβt pause.
At many times, the call to pause felt excruciatingly painful... βWhy would I stop my soulβs work? Why would I stop offering nature-connection and embodiment journeys to my community? Why am I feeling this way?! The world needs this work!β
Despite my attempts to ignore the call, it has not gone away, and instead has only become more apparent.
In the past month or so, I have finally started surrendering to the call. I am no longer filling my schedule with offerings. Yes, I have my βsurvival danceβ - backpack guiding, graduate school to become a therapist, part-time administrative work....the work I need to make money and survive, which thankfully is fulfilling work.
But Iβm not offering my own creations.
And while I thought pausing my offerings would be the most painful thing, I now realize that ignoring the call was the source of my suffering.
In surrendering to the pause, I feel free, and recognize what my soul has been yearning for- quiet, mystery, emptiness.
I say all this partly because my lovely ego wants to explain to you all why Iβm not offering any dances and programs right now. AND, I also want to honor my work and all of you who have created the magic with me. I am in awe of the co-facilitators and participants who have come together to love and listen to the Earth with me.
I love you all. I really have loved this work. But itβs time for me to listen to the mystery.
Iβm not sure how long this pause will be- a month, several months, a year, years? Time does not matter to me. What does matter, is that Iβm truly listening. And when I do offer you all my soulβs creations again, Iβm doing so from a place of authenticity.
So Iβm listening.
*Part of this pause is a pause from social media. I will be inactive on here for at least the month of January, maybe longer. I am considering deleting it all together. So please, if you want to connect with me, please call me, email me, or find me! You can also sign up for my newsletter through my website, which Iβll be sending occasional life updates*
Wishing you all deep listening to the magical mystery of life.
With love from me to you this Winter Solstice,
Deanna
P.S. this beautiful photo was created by Jason Abraham Photography with the redwoods at Henry Cowell π₯°
