07/26/2019
Almost everyday I have moments where I feel like an imposter. 1000% real talk.
Thinking today may be the day I find out I’m not knowledgeable, prepared, or experienced enough to give voice to my projects and work with my paying clients.
Funny part is, this thought is not new.
Working to overcome past trauma. . .it showed up.
Putting myself through college with minimal support. . . it spoke up.
Quitting my career to head to grad school in a different state and pursue my true passion. . .loud and clear commentary on the regular.
Working with my one on one private practice clients or talking with clients in crisis. . . doubt train rolled through my brain, over and over and over.
Pushing publish on more posts I can count or with my first Twitch stream this week. . . it screamed ‘what do you think you are doing?’.
Or how about when my photographer told me to stand in the middle of Powell’s on a busy Saturday and pose for THIS PHOTO. . .it seriously was just laughing at me at this point.
The thing is, that voice was wrong. I SURVIVED ALL these situations. I continue to crush goals. My knowledge base and experience continues to increase pushing through every time.
My biggest life lesson I have learned is that I’m not an imposter, I’m just challenged to a dance off with fear every time. Fear is an a$$hole and thinks it will win, but I’m a better dancer. The goal path I’m on, fear is also part of the equation. At 36, I’m okay with that cost.
As long as I stay true to myself, my skill set, and experience, I’m on the right path. I’ve learned the rules of the game we are playing now. Fear and I now have a relationship that works. It will try to make me feel like I’m an imposter, and I show fear that it’s a liar.
Tell your fear today, “No not today devil, not today. I’m pushing through too.” I’m here cheering you on.