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Cuddle The Struggle: The Journal of a Junkie, 1169 112th Road, Seneca, KS (2025)

04/11/2025

I am sure there are some of you that are not going to agree with me, but I just want to share this anyway.

Pain, anger, trauma… it all travels down through our family’s tree. And what really sucks is that most of the time, us as humans do not want to feel or deal with that pain, so we continue passing it down… To our kids, to our family… and we end up leaving it to them because we don’t want to deal with it or feel it. What you don’t understand is that the thing with pain and trauma is that the only way to fix it is to let yourself FEEL it. And hopefully at some point, a unique individual, a human, maybe YOU, comes along…. And you are tired of it and you want to end the cycle. You want to break your family’s traditional tree cycle of trauma. You want to stop passing it down.

So you feel the pain, because it is the only way to heal from the pain. It might label you as the black sheep, the one with anxiety and depression…. But you have to remember that YOU are the one with the superpowers, because you can feel it, you are allowing yourself to feel it. And healing may mean cutting off certain people from your life, maybe even from your family. But you have to do what you have to do so that you can break the vicious cycle of trauma that leads to mental health disorders because you don’t want your children to have to feel what you are feeling.

It is honestly the hardest thing that anyone will ever attempt to do.

I have 7 1/2 years sober, 7 1/2 years of therapy, 7 1/2 years of seeing an addiction specialist, 7 1/2 years of making myself feel the pain, 7 1/2 years of panic attacks, 7 1/2 years of having days where I can’t get out of bed, 7 1/2 years for the pain takes all of the air out of my chest, and I feel like I can’t take another step, 7 1/2 years without being able to numb it away.

It would be so much easier if I could just shoot some oxy or some he**in and numb the pain again. So much easier.

Numbing it away, working it away, running it away, using any and everything, from substances to keeping myself as busy as I possibly can to not have to feel it because it hurts so much.

But there is a 16 year-old boy watching me. Learning from me. Loving me, despite my faults and my anxiety and my depression, and I would rather feel this pain ever every single day to help break this cycle for him instead of refusing to feel it and deal with it and cope with it And heal from it so that he can have a better life.

So no, I am not always OK. I do not always have a tight grip on being able to do all the things that an average person can. So some days, I stay in bed and I let myself rest. Some days I shut off my phone or refuse to look at it because I can’t deal with anyone else’s problems at that moment aside from my own mental health. But I keep going. I keep trying. I keep feeling so that I can keep dealing to help me keep healing.

It’s OK to not always be OK. And don’t let any judgmental as***le tell you otherwise. You cannot take care of the people that you love the way they need to be taken care of if you cannot take care of yourself first.

03/20/2025

The Truth That Is So Hard To Really Talk About…

Demons growing louder
Chest tightening
Teeth and fists clenching
Fear taking over
The phone weighing a million pounds
Praying so hard but feeling unheard
Mind racing
Heart pounding
Panic consuming you
Thinking of only one thing

Oxy (enter drug of choice here _______)

For those of you who aren’t addicts or alcoholics, you will never understand what a craving will do. How it will bring you to your knees. How your every thought is consumed with needing a fix so you don’t have to feel this way anymore. I have never in my life experienced anything more intense or unrelenting than a craving!

Now for some more truth:
It does not matter how long you have been sober, no amount of time will make you immune. We will have this disease in our hearts and our minds for the rest of our lives!

My 7.5 years doesn’t really mean jack s**t if I don’t recognize how easily it could all be gone in an instant!

I do all the right things:
I surrender myself to God daily
I meditate daily
I read daily
I do my 12 step work daily
I talk to my sponsor weekly
I go to meetings
I journal excessively
I work on my character defects
I know the consequences of what will happen if I relapse- jail, institution, or death (most likely death)

My addiction didn’t start as a “Choice”…. It started with a vehicle accident fracturing all my cervical vertebrae and getting a prescription for my pain. I’ve also broken my tailbone 3 times. I now have degenerative disc disease and spondylosis in my cervical and lumbar spine. I am in pain between a 5 to a 10 at all times.

My back went out a few weeks ago and my pain has been a 10 out of 10 every single day, and let me tell ya, aleve doesn’t do much for pain that intense and debilitating. Every single day has been a constant struggle of doing everything I can to not use.
At home remedies
CBD cream
Chiropractor every other day
Massage
Cupping
Decompression

Every single thing except for going to a Doctor, because they will immediately take scans, and those scans will show how bad my back is, and they are going to offer me the only treatment available aside from getting rods in my neck:

Oxy

Thankfully I’m strong enough and smart enough to know that if they offer it, there might be a craving happening right then making it too hard to turn down.

So I do my best to keep going. I do my best to keep fighting. And all addicts experience cravings, but when you are a chronic pain patient and a legal prescription is what started your addiction (because 1 took the physical pain away, but two took the emotional pain and trauma away), you are just fu**ed. Praying that your strength doesn’t waver, EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

But it really doesn’t matter whether your addiction was brought on by a legal prescription or trying alcohol for the first time because everybody else drinks, or being drunk at a party and trying co***ne for the first time because everyone else is doing it. The substance doesn’t matter when you have the disease of addiction. It is always present. And it is always getting stronger. And no matter how much sober time you have, that beast is still awake and alive inside you.

So please don’t hesitate when you feel your chest tightening and your fist clenching and you’re craving and addiction telling you that it’s OK, call me! Message me! Know that there is somebody who understands! I will be right here fighting beside you every single day! Every. Single. Day.

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**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in

03/19/2025

Something everyone needs to know.

When someone is in active addiction, their brains have literally been hijacked by that substance.

It doesn’t give them a pass. It doesn’t make their actions okay.

But it does mean that they literally feel like they will die without it.

And it’s never been a more deadly time to be an addict than it is now. Fentanyl is showing up in everything from co***ne, to w**d, and even TYLENOL!!! Yes, you read that correctly!! Please, do not take anything, even an over the counter medicine like Tylenol or ibuprofen from anybody. Buy it from the pharmacy and only take your own! We are losing too many people!!

And no matter who you are, if you are reading this, I want you to know that there is help available, that you are wanted and needed in this world, to be cautious, and to please let me know if you need anything! And I do mean anything!

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**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in

02/19/2025

If you really want to know about addiction, you have to start asking the right question. The question is not: “Why the addiction?” Or “What is wrong with you?” “Why the oxy?” “Why he**in?” “Why coke?” “Why alcohol?” “Why porn?” “Why exercising to excess?” “Why eating to excess”

The question is: “what is right about the addiction?”

What is this addiction giving them that they can’t get anywhere else?
The answer is: RELIEF FROM THE PAIN!

So the question is not, “why the addiction?l

The question is, “why the pain?”

What is the pain? And what is missing from their lives that caused this pain?

You will not be able to help a single addict until you can make this switch in your brain.

We don’t want to be junkies! We don’t want to be snorting coke off of the back of a public toilet in a bar at 1:30 in the morning with some guy that we don’t know. We don’t want to drive down Broadway scared as s**t and looking for somebody who might have some oxy or some he**in. We don’t want that he**in that we just bought to be fentanyl and to not live to see tomorrow. Addiction does not mean that we are suicidal. It means that our pain is so great that we will do absolutely anything that we have to do to be able to numb the pain, even though the alcohol and the co***ne and the he**in and the crack and the w**d only give us peace for a few hours. And then we have to go and find it again because as soon as that drink or drug wears off, we are in so much pain that we don’t know HOW to be or even HOW to live having to feel PAIN that is inside of ourselves.

Don’t wonder and judge about the addiction.
Sympathethize or Empathize with the PAIN!

There is not a single one of us who thought we would or wanted to grow up to be a drug addict. Life‘s circumstances kind of gave us the s**tty end of the stick. And when we finally found something that took that pain away, letting that pain back in is the hardest thing that anyone in this world could ever face.

And that’s what you have to remember when your family members are newly sober. They are still the exact same person that they were 30 days ago when they walked into that treatment center. But now they have lost the only coping technique that they knew worked. So give them love and give them grace! I promise, they did not do it to hurt you or anyone around you or them. They only did it because when we are finally able to numb that pain and quiet those voices, the thought of going back to them feels like death. And as the cycle continues, we get to a point where we literally feel like we will die if we have to go on feeling that pain and we have to stop using.

You can’t cure it, and you can’t control it. All you can do is love them and guide them and help them find any kind of help that is out there.

**inaddiction my **inaddict **in **in

02/15/2025

PUPPIES!!!!! And attention to ♦️♦️RECOVERING ADDICTS, ALCOHOLICS, OR THOSE SUFFERING FROM MENTAL HEALTH DISORDERS🔷🔷!!!! Our Goldendoodle, Storm, had 10 baby puppies on Christmas morning and we still have a few of each gender left. Bred with a German Pointer. Hypoallergenic dogs. Shed very little. And SOOOO CUTE!!!

Recovering addicts and alcoholics: I am giving “first dibs” to those who are addicts/alcoholics in recovery. Both mom and dad are very gentle, lovable, compassionate dogs. So much so that I would classify them as therapy dogs. I can tell you that their mother has helped me a great deal with my mental health and depression. If you fit this bill, and could use a puppy that will give you unconditional love.., whether you are suffering from a mental health disorder or substance use disorder and in recovery…. please reach out ASAP! I would rather find somebody who needs a puppy to love on and to love them then I am about any amount of money. So please message me privately or text me at 316. 218. 7812. Located in Seneca, Kansas, but will meet you.

Please Share!! The very first picture is from Wednesday, at 7 weeks. They will all be eight weeks on Wednesday the 19th. Have had all their vaccinations. They are now ready for someone to give them a good home and to give them lots of love!!

Not looking to make a profit on these puppies. We just want them to go to a good home that will really love them and care for them. Their mom, Storm, is nothing short of a therapy dog. Loves to snuggle and will even hug on command.

02/05/2025

I appreciate the love and all of the support that all of you show me! But I need for you all to read this as well! Thank you for understanding! ❤️ ✌🏼

02/03/2025

Even a spotlight or a movie
Couldn’t show the side that I’ve been hiding lately
And lately…
They say the old me’s not the new me
But the same me’s still inside that I’m containing
UNCHAIN ME!!!!

Listen, I’m sorry since you saw me
I’ve sawed through bones, took my heart out my body, mm
Have you forgot me?
‘Cause I’m longing for the times when time was non-existent
Staring Into your kaleidoscope eyes that I envisioned.

The cross I bear, I wear for my protection
Abandoned and I’m searching for a connection
I barely recognize my own reflection
‘Cause all I ever wanted was acceptance
I fear rejection

And I don’t cry like I used to
‘Cause I know these tears don’t wash my sins away
And I don’t pray like I used to
‘Cause I don’t think I deserve the time of day.

**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in

It’s amazing how a song can find you and fit your life so well, to the point where you feel you could’ve written it and that’s what this song is for me. Jelly Roll & MGK hit this perfectl!!f

12/30/2024

Last week on the 23rd marks 7 1/2 years in recovery, and still chains appear some days.

NF helped with this writing, which I made a lot of it my own. It was just so close to my feelings I had to take it and make it my own. I wish that I could tell you that all of this went away at 32, or the second I got sober, but it didn’t and it doesn’t. The demons don’t go away overnight. It takes years, and a whole lot of work to get through the feelings that are in this writing. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t still have some of these feelings inside that I’m still working on. It’s a never ending journey, but it’s worth it. I think about where I would be today if I didn’t get sober and I would either be dead or on the streets. My son would be an orphan or have a mom who was not a part of his life and even thinking of that breaks my heart…

So as you’re reading this, please know it didn’t all stop at 32. And some of these I could write in my actual age and it would still be accurate even though I do everything every day that I need to do for my sobriety and mental health. So without further ado….

32 years of running, 32 years of searching
32 years of hurting, 32 years of pain
32 years of fearful, 32 years of anger
32 years of empty, 32 years of shame
32 years of broken, 32 years of anguish
32 years of hopeless, 32 years of feign
32 years of never, 32 years of maybe
32 years of later, 32 years of fake
32 years of hollow, 32 years of sorrow
32 years of darkness, 32 years of shakes
32 years of baggage, 32 years of sadness
32 years of stagnant, 32 years of chains
32 years of anxious, 32 years of suffering
32 years of torment, 32 years of (Demons in my Brain: “wait”)
32 years of bitter, 32 years of lonely
32 years of pushing everyone away
(Demons: “You’ll never evolve”)
I know I can change
(“We are not enough”)
We are not the same
(“You don’t have the heart”)
You don’t have the strength
(“You don’t have the will”)
you don’t have the faith
(“You’ll never be loved, you’ll never be safe. Might as well give up”)
I’m not running away
(“You don’t have the guts”)
No, you’re the one afraid
I’m the one in charge
I’m taking the (“no”)
I’m taking the Reigns

**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in

12/16/2024

It’s a tough crowd where I come from. If you want to eat, you have to know where you can get it from.

Because broken hearts make broken homes, and I’m a product of both. Content with being alone.

So I take those back roads in my Chevy when I head to the strip.

And I won’t make all my real father’s mistakes. I would hate myself if I did.

And the guys say:
They haven’t ever seen one quite like this.
With the bulleit rye on my lips.
Got on 501’s with a .45 G***k tucked on the side of my hip.
Stay rollin’ those spliffs, with my chips rolled tight.

He said he hasn’t ever seen his type in these neon lights.

✌🏼That’s right!

Cuz lastnight was your last night.
Maybe next life? Haha!! No dice!!
I’m a wildcard, Baby!! You shouldn’t bet on me! 🃏

**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in Coey Redd

08/19/2024

“Hey, did you hear Kelsey relapsed?!”
“OMG, I just heard Kelsey’s back in rehab!”
“Did you hear about Kelsey? What a piece of s**t!”

Seriously? Do people have nothing better than to make s**t up about me? It’s like high school but worse because these aren’t teenagers, they are grown ass people. If I don’t put something on social for a while, I relapsed. If I go to Walmart without makeup on, I relapsed. Get a life of your own and stop worrying about what I’m doing! If you guys want, I’ll let my therapist and addiction specialist that gives me a drug test every month, that you would like copies of my tests, care and visits with both of them for the last 7 years! Until that, I’m going to leave you with a poem about where I was versus where I’m at now. And the rest you, you just keep talking and I’ll keep working on being the best me that I can be!

Maybe

I don’t have anything to offer the world,
Except for all of my broken pieces.
There have been so many nights I wanted to end it,
And I couldn’t think of a reason to keep on breathing.

Sometimes I get feelings of guilt as I remember the past,
And everything i sacrificed just to get high.
Crashing my car off the side of the road,
Hoping to get a script so I didn’t feel like I was dying.

I don’t know why I was born different,
Wondering if God had made me from a broken mold.
Getting so lonely I’d drink a fifth til I blacked out,
And then I woke up even more alone.

Waking up with remorse for the things I couldn’t remember,
And feeling shame for the things that I had done.
It’s hard to hold all the pieces together,
When the pieces are broken cuz you couldn’t feel love.

And maybe I will find my way out
And maybe i wont fall the whole way down
And maybe I will feel some love
And maybe someday I will be someone

I don’t have anything to offer the world,
Except for my story and everything that is real.
I made a deal with the devil while praying to God,
Will salvation save the soul he came to steal?

I didn’t know what the future would hold,
I was 30 years old facing oblivion, chasing a high
I was 31 years old overdosing in a parking lot,
Praying to God just to save my life.

Help me Jesus, I cannot breathe.
Help me Jesus, I’m blind and I cannot see.

Jesus, is there anything more for me here,
And do I have a purpose?
Is there love available for me in this world,
And if so, do I even deserve it?

Maybe I have something to offer the world,
I’m fighting cold sweats and my body’s shaking.
Come on Kelsey, you have a son to live for,
You don’t have a choice you just have to make it.

Take it Lord - everything that I am,
and make me like you, I don’t want to suffer.
I know you created me for so much more,
To be an overcomer who finally does recover.

I trust you God, you got a plan for me,
I feel my spirit coming back to life.
Take this nature that kills every seed that is in me,
Before it even has a change to thrive.

I’ve surrendered it all, you have the will and the power
And the rest of my entire life is in your hands.
You gave me something to offer the world,
And because of Your grace, I was given a second chance.

**inaddiction **inaddict **in **in

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