Purpose over Fear

03/07/2024

https://www.hopehasarrived.com/10-things-i-like-about.../
I often go back to this blog I wrote as a guest writer and allow myself to remember 'my gots' - as I sit here today with another clear scan, I 'got' more time and a heck of a lot more to be thankful for.

Despite the challenges of being diagnosed with melanoma, I experienced some major positives from my cancer journey. Seriously.

02/25/2024

Oh my it’s been forever since I have posted on here. In a week I go in for my scan, what will be (hopefully) my second to last scan since being diagnosed with stage 3 melanoma in 2019. It has been a journey (it’s a marathon not a race). I still suffer from fear but I am so thankful for the path I chose for healing. Fear is a liar. It holds you back when you should take a leap. Fear is a liar, it steals your days when it consumes your mind. Fear is a liar, it tells you hope is not possible when it actually is. If you’re reading this and you’re feeling fear … kicks its ass because it’s a liar! My mind killed so many days during my journey because of fear. Days I’ll never get back. BUT because I wouldn’t let it completely take me out I also stood a chance to fight against cancer. I won’t claim victory… yet… but I do claim that fear is a liar.

10/10/2023

Turn your 'nots' into 'gots'... an article I gues t wrote for that still holds true today!

Despite the challenges of being diagnosed with melanoma, I experienced some major positives from my cancer journey. Seriously.

10/10/2023

Today is the day. The day you listen to that voice in your head. The day that you pay attention to that aching in your gut. The day that you scratch that itch. Today, is the day that you take the courageous step to get that thing checked out, inquire about that thing that you have been thinking about, to take that step to do that thing you've always wanted to do. Today is the day, and this is the sign you were waiting for! What will you do TODAY to better your tomorrow?

This week I declined an offer that just didn't meet my needs, desires or goals. It was an offer to do something big and great and I fearlessly walked away from it. It didn't feel right. I"m holding out for something better, because I deserve better and SO DO YOU. So I hope this message finds you at just the right time in your life.

06/15/2023

I have not posted in a while. I am sorry. I have been trying to not live the life where my story is just about cancer. In the last year two very dear friends have lost their lives to this disease and I have tried so desperately to distance myself from the 'story'. It is interesting how my thoughts have evolved. I do still fear the disease, but I also understand it and its emotional tentacles so much more now than I ever did before. When initially diagnosed the fear was immediate, emanate and superficial (meaning I could feel it at the skin level). Now, the fear is deep. BUT it is also more practical and just less... as I approach my first 6 month scan i find myself scanning my body like I have done since intially diagnosed for every bruise, bump, lump, and cough. Not because I think it will be a bad scan but because I am aware and interested in what is happening with my body.

More to come, but for today I pray that whatever you feel (physically or mentally) that you pause, take a deep breath and tell yourself and the universe that you are strong and your body noise is a sweet sound (not an alarming one) of what needs love, support and attention.

03/26/2023

Girl dad, being awesome…

03/26/2023

Who doesn’t want a deep healing hydrating face mask after a weekend of shopping, cookie selling and girl scouting!

10/22/2022

Yep!!!!

10/06/2022

ALS
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Whatever your cancer, this is the docuseries to watch!