05/02/2025
There are only two pictures of my son and I together that I took the whole year of 2023. This is on his birthday at Legoland. I focused all my attention on making his day feel extra special and was able to experience moments of joy.
I was neck deep in the mud of depression and anxiety that had taken over me for about 10 months at this time. Thinking about it now, I realize I felt so much shame for feeling how I felt knowing I had so much to live for and yet wanting to end it all because of my internal suffering.
I finally reached out for professional help a year after and with each session with my therapist, I started to slowly feel like myself again.
May is month. but I share my struggles throughout the year in hopes to end the stigma around mental health struggles. Struggles with mental health can affect anyone, at anytime.
It does this because mental health isn’t just what happens between your ears. It is much more than that. Your thoughts, your actions, your habits in how you treat your mind, body, and how you honor your spirit all come together and make up your mental health. Just know that if you are struggling, feel ashamed, feel defeated, and want to stop feeling that way, keep listening to that part of you that wants to live. The part of you that is sick of feeling down IS you. Let that voice be stronger.
When you’re ready, there is help for you. There is help for everyone. You have to start to surrender to the possibility of feeling free and being here one small step at a time.