05/25/2026

happy memorial day 🤍
enjoy a snack with a loved one 💛

05/15/2026

Every day of my life, I feel a VAST colorful array of emotions☀️

And sometimes one color wins out 🌧️

Or I have a week like this one, with some awesome highs (took Faye on her first trail ride! Ate delicious cheesecake!), coupled with some deep sad blues (family health scares, big big grief).

But together, it is my life. It is messy, it’s unconventional, and it’s really, really, REALLY emotional. Those emotions lift me up, they lift my friends and family. And, they remind me what’s real, they point me back home, and they show me why I care. 🌈 ✨ 🍓

05/10/2026

This sounds insane to my ears but… I started a YouTube channel!

One of the MOST helpful things in ED recovery was having company during meals & snacks.

I have some amazing memories of chatting with supports during mealtimes, & wanted to share that with others.

I thought it might be helpful to have different prompts, à la for folks to follow along.

So if you’re feeling nervous, or just need a buddy for snack time- I got you 🤍🩷

05/06/2026

Loving someone with an eating disorder comes with a level of vulnerability and worry that often puts friendship on the back-burner.

That doesn’t change the fact that it can often be a very emotional and potentially confusing time for those on the outside.

I continue to learn so, so much from my friends, and I think they could write textbooks about how to be a friend to someone in recovery.

So if that’s what you need, ideas on how to support & how to love…
I present to you- the 5 friendship lessons that saw me through my eating disorder recovery.

Full thoughts on substack! 🤍💛

05/06/2026

Loving someone with an eating disorder comes with a level of vulnerability and worry that often puts friendship on the back-burner.

That doesn’t change the fact that it can often be a very emotional and potentially confusing time for those on the outside.

I continue to learn so, so much from my friends, and I think they could write textbooks about how to be a friend to someone in recovery.

So if that’s what you need, ideas on how to support & how to love… I present to you- the 5 friendship lessons that saw me through my eating disorder recovery.

https://valiantrecovery.substack.com/p/how-to-be-a-friend-to-someone-in

04/14/2026

I am not a body with a soul, I am a soul who happens to have this body.

When push comes to shove I will always make my decisions in that order.

Soul first.

Then body.

07/29/2025

I think about my body a lot.

Like, a LOT. How it looks, how it feels, what my sensations are, what it needs, what it wants… she occupies a rather large portion of my brain.

& quite frankly- she has a lot of power over me. She stops me when she’s sick, wakes me up when she’s rested, sits me down when she’s tired.

Thinking about my body allows me to clothe her appropriately. Allows me to tend to her bug bites & bruises.

But what that doesn’t mean is that I make decisions for her based on how I feel ABOUT her.

Those decisions are made based on the messages she sends me- not how I once might have interrupted them.

They are sacred, my holy space. The place of connection between my brain that powers my life & the body that lets me live it.

I will always think about her, her wants, needs, desires.

But never again will I betray her trust. She is my responsibility, & I wear her with pride 💛

07/07/2025

The idea that an ED diagnosis is a life long sentence crippled me- for a very long time.

I was ✨convinced✨ there was no point in really recovering, if that meant I was just going to relapse again.

So for a long time, that’s what I did.

I managed, I coped, I tried. & as a mentor of mine says “managing is an approximation of regulation.” So for those years I hold no shame. I did the best I could, my supports did the best they could.

But eventually it snapped. There wasn’t going to be a sentence uttered in nativity hanging over my head for the rest of my life. Thanks to the incredible example of & other fully recovered individuals I started down a different path.

I now consider myself fully recovered. My body is my own, food holds no power over me. That’s not to say there aren’t difficulties, that my life is perfect- but I have put those things back in their proper place, away from the control they once held over me.

A journey I am very, very grateful for 🤍 a journey I hope to continue to use to raise awareness- it’s not a lifelong sentence, it’s not the end. It’s the chance to heal, to live a fuller life than you ever imagined.

{side note- the pic on the bottom left of the second slide cracks me up. My dad took that after I was discharged from treatment at one point. Very “last day of school!” But make it psych ward 😂}

05/21/2025

I sit down to write & my mind goes blank. I sit down to write & I cry. The tears flow & they flow, a cascade from my heart to the world.

She left behind a girl. A girl so desperately in love with horses she will spend the rest of her life choosing them. A little girl who wanted nothing in the world so much as her own magical unicorn.

She has left me, but she hasn’t. Tattooed on my heart, in every breath I breathe.

And she left behind Faye. A bright star, a crescent moon 🌙. The balm to my soul & the hope for the future.

Together we are grieving. Together we are wishing. Together we are 💛

08/01/2024

I had a dream last night. I had a dream that I picked you up, & we went for strawberry ice cream together 🍓

It was a beautiful dream, & I haven’t been able to shake it all day.

I’ve lost two friends in my life in violent ways, two friends whose deaths I found out about via social media posts.

That’s not something I would wish on anyone, ever.

I worry about most of the people in my life, but some more than others. The ones I can’t see in person. The ones I can’t touch, I can’t hold. & especially the ones I know are vulnerable.

But of all my friends I think I worry about you the most. The grief of not being able to verify if you’re ok, if you’re still fighting- it’s a monster in my heart.

But the joy you have brought me, the comfort, laughs, & inside jokes- I will gladly host this monster to have known your friendship.

As I’ve grown I’ve realized that most relationships {all?} are impermanent in some way. They change, evolve, end. Sometimes for the better, sometimes not. & while my heart wants to rail against this; hold you all as close to me as I can forevermore, I can not. So instead I say this-

I love you, I will always love you. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing- I love you 🤍 🍃

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