05/12/2019
Being a mother is absolutely a blessing but it is also a terrifying responsibility, growing up we all look back at what our parents did and how we might even resent them for certain things and say how we will NEVER do XYZ because how it still effects us to this day. But the truth is we can’t be perfect and we can’t pre determine what our children will eventually blame us for because it just happens. With my little angel here on earth I try my best everyday to just be there for her in all the ways she is asking, the simple things are what matters to them most. I have been so lucky to share these last 5 special years with her and now with her little sister on the way I have been grieving this special time and looking back and wishing how I had done things differently, obviously I can’t so as a mother I made a promise to myself to just keep being there for her as fully as I can and to do the same for her little sister, to stop worrying so much about what I’m doing wrong, to not be so hard on myself, to not compare to other mothers and to truly just live now and enjoy every little moment with them. I am forever grateful for this time and this challenge to all that she had taught me and to all that I will still learn. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mamas out there!