04/20/2026
THE BLESSING OF THE BROKEN Episode 9
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
When we are Living Broken, Brokenness is all we know. We live, breathe, and Believe the Brokenness. When we are trapped in that place of Trauma, we can see nothing beyond it. We can only see our circumstances from a Physical perspective, not from a Spiritual one. We battle in our Minds. We battle in our Bodies. But our real battle is a Spiritual Battle. We are Battling Brokenness.
We listen to the lies of the Enemy, and we agree with them. We speak them to ourselves over, and over, again. We repeat them to ourselves in the Darkness of our Minds, and we know them as our own Truth. I Hate myself. I don’t fit in. I am The Broken One.
We remember the Shame of our abuse, or the pain of our past, and we Believe it has tainted us, it has stained us, that we are different. We are isolated and alone. We are Wounded Warriors crushed by the Crises. We are Faithful Followers of Christ, and yet we are Broken, as Believers. We are Broken by the Battle.
We try harder than anyone else with our Performance, or Perfectionism, to cover up our own disdain, our own Self-Hatred. But the Brokenness of our Heart, and the pain of that place of Rejection, forces us to run a race for Acceptance and for Love, that never stops, and never wins. We are then Guilty of failing to Perform, and we run that race over again, and again.
Our own Thoughts condemn us. We can’t let anyone close enough to our Heart, to know the truth about ourselves, our own insecurities about who we are. We don’t belong with them, The Beautiful Ones, the others who have it all together because we are too Broken, and too Ashamed of our Brokenness. I’ve been Abused. I’ve been Divorced. I’ve lost my Job. I’m a Failure. I can’t Cope. And we condemn ourselves.
We hide in the darkness, within our own Brokenness. We walk around with an invisible Scarlet Letter on our forehead. The letter S for Shame, for Sin. For Set-Aside. For Set-Apart. For Stupid. For Susan.
We say in our Hearts that we CAN love, but maybe we can’t. Maybe we are too Broken. Maybe we are too hurt. We listen to the Unloving Spirit that whispers in our ear, in our thoughts, in our minds, and says, “You will never be loved.” “God doesn’t love you.” “Your father didn’t love you.” “Your husband didn’t love you.” So, you don’t Love yourself.
You hear it, that Self-Accusation, that Self-Condemnation, that Self-Rejection, and you Believe it, and you Agree with it. And you reject LOVE, because you are too Broken. Every time someone comes close enough to your Heart to hurt it, you reject Love. You reject the person. You reject yourself, you reject God, and you say I am Unworthy of Love. You expect it, and you reject it.
We have become Bitter within our own Hearts, and we Live it, and Breathe it, and Seethe it. We Hate the one who hurt us. We Hate God for not protecting us. We Hate ourselves for allowing it.
We believe The Brokenness, and we have Anger, and Rage, ourselves now, just like the one who raged against us. The Root of Bitterness is a fruit of Unforgiveness. A Root of Bitterness defiles many. Now, we ourselves are the ones being defiled. Now, we battle Bitterness in our own Hearts. Now, we battle Bitterness in our own bodies, as a fruit of Cancer.
We listen to the Fear in our thoughts, and we believe whatever it tells us, and we are Afraid. We listen to the Fear, and it controls us. We listen to the Fear, and it holds us. We listen to the Fear, and we are terrified of it. And yet, we listen and Believe it.
We have not understood the Power we have given to it that keeps us in Bo***ge to Fear. And now our bodies are wrecked with Dis-Ease and Disease, because Fear has torment. Every Fearful thought we feel. Every Fearful thought we think. We now manifest as Physical symptoms; as High Blood pressure, as Panic Attacks, as Heart palpatations, as Heart Attacks. We are living in constant Crisis, and in total Trauma, and we are in continual Fear, Anxiety, and Stress.
We have not understood why we are Sick. We have not understood why this is happening to us again, and to nobody else. Why is our Immune System not working? Why are we continuously Living Broken, battling Auto-immune Disease, and not recovering Physically, or Emotionally from them? There is a Spiritual Issue of the Heart at play, keeping us bound to Battling Brokenness every day.
We have not understood the Spiritual Reality of what we have Believed in our Hearts, or of what we are actually Spiritually bearing, and reaping, causing our own Physical bodies to not work properly, or to not Heal. We have not understood, that we are Spiritually reaping Sickness and Disease, within our Physical Bodies, as we Battle Brokenness. We are actually reaping the consequences of the Curse. We are reaping The Blessing of The Broken, as a Spiritual Inheritance.
Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened that it cannot Save; But your iniquities have separated you from your God. Sin separates us from God.
Isaiah 59:1-4 NKJV
Separated from God
59 Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened,�That it cannot save;�Nor His ear heavy,�That it cannot hear.
2 But your iniquities have separated you from your God;�And your sins have hidden His face from you,�So that He will not hear.
3 For your hands are defiled with [a]blood,�And your fingers with iniquity;�Your lips have spoken lies,�Your tongue has muttered perversity.
4 No one calls for justice,�Nor does any plead for truth.�They trust in empty words and speak lies;�They conceive [b]evil and bring forth iniquity.
Isaiah 59:8-10 NKJV
8 The way of peace they have not known,�And there is no justice in their ways;�They have made themselves crooked paths;�Whoever takes that way shall not know peace.
9 Therefore justice is far from us,�Nor does righteousness overtake us;�We look for light, but there is darkness!�For brightness, but we walk in blackness!
10 We grope for the wall like the blind,�And we grope as if we had no eyes;�We stumble at noonday as at twilight;�We are as dead men in desolate places.
TO BE CONTINUED.
