iliveunchained

24/04/2025

She's got your hands, eyes and mouth :)

14/04/2025

Still grateful for how you show up in my days ... :) these belong to Destinee Habeil ... she for sure took after her G-ma !! Never miss a holiday :)

08/02/2025

Even when no light is near ... YOU provide.

Ever wake up in a world where you say "how did I end up here" ? I'm waking up this morning with a soul willing, a heart broken and a mind confused. "They" tell you get help .. seek advice. The word even tells me clearly that things are not right. The answers might appear obvious to most however when calling on the spirit the fight begins. Seek ye FIRST the kingdom of God and ALL these these shall be added. Where is your kingdom in my world oh Lord .. this is the question. What is my battle .. to fight, to leave, to quit ?

The power I hold sometimes gets lost in the brokenness. To know an answer may not always be the best route. I don't give up easy and for that I may be suffering. I've even put my writing therapy at rest .. the words leave me in pain. I know there's a way because the promise is there. This mission now is to be of SOBER mind so that I may hear Him gently say to me ... "If just a cup of water, I place within your hand .. then just a cup of water, is all that I demand".

It's been one of the hardest journey's so far and without my biggest cheerleader it's even worse. I'll be forever grateful for the foundation she gave me .. it's the fuel needed daily to carry on.

it's my motto and sometimes I have to remind myself to leave the chains behind. Let them fall ....

14/12/2024

It's the smile that does it for me ... !!!!

Another holiday season has come and is quickly passing by. It's crazy to think of how fast time goes without the souls you depended on your entire life. The absence of YOU has been by far the biggest test of my entire existence.

Oh I've got SO many great things to share .. things like how 2025 has GOALS !! Making decisions this side of heaven can be difficult at times but I've learned to say "only IF I allow it" ...

The future can only shine when sifted thru the One true light of this world. My prayer is to continue on in your legacy of servanthood. My passion leads me to health and my future involves children. STAY TUNED !!!!

The doors are opening and I'm walking thru them !!!!!!! I feel your guidance now in a much more different way but oh so needed. The wisdom gained thru our physical separation will be used to fuel the plans He has for me. Getting to an understanding that my purpose should never be ignored, never told it's not for me .. What God has in store for you is known by only Him. Follow !!!!

25/11/2024

Seasons ...

His timing .. life is worth the living.

12/11/2024

It's what we do with the wisdom gained that will reap the blessings .. wisdom gained but not shared would be a loss for many. A detour in God's road map :) I've taken the detour for a while lately .. not off the path but rather more in tune with the road itself. Digging deep into the will for my soul. At 57 it would be a tragedy to miss out on any more of His plan because of my plans.

The journey ahead will give Him the glory for revealing His purpose in my life .. It will be 2 years in May that everyday has been completely MY choices. You see the love of a mother and daughter can be SO extremely close that the separation is freeing. OH YES I miss her so much but I'm grateful for the wisdom gained. Knowing that she held ALLLLL my secrets about my marriage because it was her advice that was my law. I trusted her like no other. Her wisdom took over my soul searching and seeking with Jesus, to gain on my own. It's a life lived under a scarcity mindset .. I NEVER wanted to walk away from God again like I did at 21 .. Her wisdom of God's word was AMAZING and I will always hear her sweet self telling me all the things the Jesus wanted for me. She had no idea that I didn't allow myself to think outside of her box. BUT GOD .. He is so so good and He's revealed in this season much and UNTIL He says this is the time ... I will wait

It's a ferris wheel of emotions .. but its very soul satisfying to know that the reason He gave us each individual journey is to allow Him to mold. Him alone. Guidance is golden but one should never stop there. Beyond guidance is your own truth .. the only one that exists between you and your Lord. I will carry on her legacy sharing with my children and grandchildren about the importance of the only relationship on this earth that will set you free is between you and Jesus. Period.

23/10/2024

Let the molding be done by the Creator and nobody else ...

It's as if God simply placed a stepping stone just for me :)

Another notch on my journey to eternity.

It's been just over a year when I had walked into a watch repair shop. Only to realize that it was not about the watches that day. I met a soul that challenged me. We had a very deep conversation about being SILENT with God. It lead to the discussion of forgiveness.

This soul came right out and said "You need to go and forgive your mother" .. IMMEDIATELY my heart thought "she's done NOTHING wrong ever" .. surely this might be what others are needing but not me. Me and my mama were inseparable for 56 years !! She was my ROCK.

This morning I'm here to witness !!! You see the past almost 2 years now, God has been so gracious to reveal and to remove MUCH needed people in my life. This has allowed me time to seek truth and to strive towards TRUE freedom in Christ. It wasn't until the quote was given to me again a few days ago. After sharing life with someone who has been a part of mine for over 30 years now, she said "you need to forgive your mother" .. THIS time I asked if she could explain. After hearing her out a break through happened. I could see where my heart had one more chain that still had a lock. The chain of PLEASING ... it's been my best quality but yet my worst downfall.

My sweet mama had 4 kids .. me being the youngest and only girl I was of course her pride and joy. Her 3 boys were not so easily controlled. Control seems like such a harsh word when I'm speaking of MY mama SO let's be clear I LOVED my mama and totally understand her desire to want me to do my best. I totally see how I allowed her to direct my path. I never wanted to disappoint her .. so much to the point of making LIFE decisions that I knew would make her happy.

No regrets .. just forever grateful for growth. I forgive you my sweet mama .. I now know how deep your love was for me .. so much that you would have chained me to your soul if you could have.

Grateful for the spirit He left for us. Thankful for friends who speak out ..

16/10/2024

Oh ZUCK Please don't hide my posts. Many need GUT health & I'm tryin to get to the Bahama's. LIKE if you can SEE this !!!

11/10/2024

The most precious gift I received from my mother was her unwavering commitment to serving others, a true inspiration.

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21/09/2024

Like a mama with her babies is Christ with His sheep !!!!

The universe has given yet another challenge for my soul to embark on. Wow what a journey it's been ... I have for sure missed the presence of YOU my sweet mama. You always always always gave good direction.

There is so much power in the words of Jesus that even the wolves can't defeat.

It's during the attack we might loose focus but will never loose hope.

The one living without chains will still live with scars but its the scars that keep her one step ahead.

One of her biggest lessons was "there is nothing He can't do" NEVER give in to what may appear final ... WE are given each day to use it for His glory. Whatever that may look like :)

09/09/2024

The power of a praying woman ...

Her example was such an impact that I'm realizing I took it for granted. There wasn't anything I could bring to her that caused her fear. She immediately took it to Jesus and maybe then panicked lol.

There's power in prayer and when mama got the golden ticket to eternity, I feel I lost a HUGE prayer warrior. I can't imagine the amount of time she spent talking about ME to Jesus :)

but God ..

He whispers .. "I already know, just talk to me" :) His power never leaves .. it's within all His people. START PRAYING PEOPLE !!!!!

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07/09/2024

The absence ...

This morning the soul feels comfort from the only One that soothes. It's been a year and a half since your journey to the promise land. The moment you gained wings was the moment I gained courage. Thanks for passing me your baton.

Forced to live this life in the absence of you at first was like trying to breath underwater. I have held tight to everything we talked about and I've felt peace with each decision.

Our God is so good and He truly knows what we can handle anything with Him. Life here has been blessed beyond measure and to know that the legacy continues in me gives me strength.

Sometimes we get to a point in life when we allow others to simply take over ... I think my mom knew how much I depended on her. I depended on her wisdom and her spiritual guidance.. at the end it was difficult for her to let go. She feared what would happen to me. Who would I turn to when the world has crushed me yet again? Again the human thinks way to deep into what the soul already knows. The trials of hate and separation of "family" could be one of the hardest, however it's been one of the biggest blessings. I have literally lost an entire family in the past year .. family that chose to disconnect, family that chose to turn away and family that claim to love Christ. TODAY I'm grateful for their rejection of me :) It's a much freeing life when you are chasing after what God has already removed.

It's been a journey for sure .. one that I'm grateful for. The absence of the ONE human I relied on for everything has taught me just what the SPINE is for. It's shown me that all along it's been God in her that kept me going. That same strength lives in me and has always been the guide.

Never allow the world to consume the human needs that we completely miss the soul gains. RELY on God ... it works !!!