12/08/2024
The last month has not played out like I thought it would.
At the beginning of July, I was in a groove. Ever since my birthday in June, things had been going really well… I was in the middle of an amazing Transformative Self-Healing class, my relationship hit “officially dating” status, and I was enjoying summer activities. The beginning of July was fun and engaging, and I was looking ahead to future short-term projects.
THEN… I got hit, steam-rolled over, and spit out by the Mac truck that came barreling out of nowhere.
It started with a phone call and an e-mail from my ENT doctor. I had a surgery scheduled for July 31st, for a cochlear implant (I’ll share more on this in another post). After months of preparation, tests, and excitement for getting my hearing back, my insurance company denied my surgery. The amount of transformation I have done around my ear and loss of hearing has been extraordinary, so to have my hopes dashed and expectations shot down abruptly was painful.
Then one day, my cat, Tredd, on his usual outside jaunt around the yard, came badly hobbling around the corner of the house. He had clearly injured himself somehow. After a day of keeping him comfortable, letting him rest and doing CCT with him, I realized he was going to need additional care. The diagnosis was that he had dislocated his back right leg from his pelvis, and would need surgery, where they would cut off the whole head of his femur. This would mean that his leg would never again be attached to his pelvis, and would limit the mobility of an aging cat, who hated to be limited in any way shape or form.
Considering his quality-of-life decline, and especially how it would be after the surgery, I opted to decline the surgery, and gifted him his ultimate “freedom”. He crossed the rainbow bridge close to two weeks ago. He was 16 years old, the last living representation of my “former life”, and I will miss him tremendously.
In the middle of all of this, I found out that someone whom I held very near and dear to me unexpectedly passed away. This person was instrumental in helping me take a huge step forward in my life after Larry (my partner of 10 years) passed away in 2014. They saw me in a way that I desperately needed at the time, and went above and beyond in supporting me. In fact, they were so helpful to me, that they were even the inspiration for a main character in the book series I’m writing. I was shocked and greatly saddened at seeing they had passed so suddenly.
Each of these events required personal growth.
The second I got the news about my ear surgery, I put myself in a CCT session. This helped me immediately address my emotional upheaval and disbelief, but it also helped me realize something… even though I had my hopes up and was being denied, there was a solution. My literal thought in the middle of the session was, “There are thousands of people in the U.S. who have this implant… I am certain there’s a way for me to be one of them.” That alone changed my whole perspective on the situation.
After I found out the news about Tredd, I did several CCT sessions on myself. Each one brought me clarity that I needed to make the right decision. As I transformed, I could see more and more clearly that his quality of life would go down, and I could see that it already had started (albeit slowly). I realized that his desire to be completely free, without any limitations or restrictions, would literally create a sort of ‘hell-on-Earth’ situation for him.
When I stopped crying over my friend who passed away suddenly, I did another CCT session on myself. It first helped dissolve the shock I felt, and then I miraculously found that I was in a tremendous state of gratitude for them… even more so than I had been. Instead of my heart filling with sadness, it swelled with a profound state of love.
When each of these things happened, I experienced various levels of pain… sometimes it was anger, sometimes it was sadness, sometimes it was shock, sometimes it was uncertainty. My experience of each event contained things that didn’t feel good, that I didn’t understand right away, and that ultimately held distress.
My “negative” experience of each event was an indicator that there was room for me to personally grow and evolve through and because of those experiences.
I now can see that there was something “off” about the timing of the implant. My mental brain was trying to orient to the end of July timing, but energetically, there was (and still is, to a degree) something not quite right about it. I’ve done a couple more sessions around some of the frustrations about my symptoms, and am more at peace with the temporary ringing (Tinnitus) and loss of hearing. I know there is a solution, and I am back on track to finding one.
I now feel like my animal communication skills have increased. I’ve always been pretty good and intuiting information from animals, but the whole experience with Tredd helped me dial in to not only the end of life process, but also how to discern whether I’m doing something for “me”, or for “them”. I’ll absolutely take the skill with me into the future (which is another indicator of transformation).
I now also can see how my friend was ready to ‘go’ for a little while now. They knew their time was coming, and had even alluded to it publicly. I received the blessings of my time and experience with them, and can perceive how they very much chose their timing of their passing. That’s yet another lesson I can learn from them.
When we perceive something “bad” that is happening “to us”, it is just a perception. Not denying the pain or suffering we may experience is important, but recognizing that it is actually there to help us grow is the key. Then using tools to support that growth is where the magic happens.
I don’t know what I’d do without my CCT tools. They support my growth and transformation by literally doing the heavy lifting for me. They help me see things as they are, not through my trauma or beliefs, or emotions. They help me learn the lessons that are available to me throughout my life, and they help me become higher and higher versions of myself.
I’m so lucky to have had all those things happen to me in July. Even though it didn’t go the way I was expecting, the gifts that came from my experiences, and from the transformation of those experiences, has forever changed my life for the better.
All of the tools I used this month are from the Transformative Self-Healing class. Whether you’ve taken it (or a version of it) before, or if you’ve never taken a CCT class ever, you’ll find tremendous value in both learning the tools, and observing how they work in your life. They’re incredibly easy and fun to use, and the results of letting the tools do the work is nothing short of spectacular.
I’m starting the fall class on September 6th, from 3:00-5:00pm EST. It runs for 13 weeks, so there is plenty of time to learn and practice all the tools, and observe and share how they help support you in your life.
For more information, check out the class page here: https://bit.ly/4bzyaSZ
You can utilize sessions to help YOU grow and evolve, like I described above. If you have experienced something that was troubling, shocking, intrusive, and/or you are sad, angry, bitter, depressed, lost, or grief-stricken, I can help (I can help with a slew of other things, too).
If you’re not sure how I can help, send me a message and let me know what’s going on. I’ll let you know if it’s something I can help you with.
