19/05/2022
It's been a long ti.e since I've posted but tonight is really tough. I flared up after covid. I was clear.for the first time in about 20 years and was finally feeling really good about myself and life. Now I am a mess. I look like I've been burned the rash is taking over my arms hands and face. And I have noticed that people state now. Not like before. It's that bad.
And I am not wanting to leave the house. I just want to stay home...safe.
It's just a temporary set back but it's really consuming me. I am entirely focused on my skin. Mindlessly picking. Waking up fatigued and bloody. It's just too much.
I'm not sure when or why it took me down such a negative path this time. I mean after so long you just get used to it and go about your day. Not this time. It's nearly crushed me.
After covid it came back with a serious hate and it's just too much.
Nobody should have to live or look like this. Right ?
I feel like I am throwing myself a huge pitty party but it's real hard.
Really
