08/13/2023
This is dedicated to anyone who’s ever experienced the uncertainty of experiencing joy on their birthday.
This year all of my birthday plans fell apart days before my birthday.
I cried … a lot. I felt defeated, disappointed and alone. And then I realized this was an opportunity to grow. This was my chance to prove to myself that I can be at peace even when nothing is going the way I wanted it to.
It’s easy to love your life when everything is going your way … I want to love my life even if it’s not.
I also realized that all of the plans I had been trying to make were being made out of fear. Fear of being alone on my birthday. And fear of not being able to do something magical and fun as a result of being alone and stuck in a place I didn’t want to be.
I sat with this awareness and decided to embrace my fear.
I took a deep breath and booked a dinner reservation for one at one of my favorite restaurants. I decided I would get all dressed up and take myself out to celebrate my birthday.
Not just so I could post something cool on social media, but to prove to myself the following …
✨I love myself unconditionally.
✨Everything I need and desire to create a life I love is always within me.
✨I am not dependent on anyone else to complete me, provide for me or ensure I’m living my best life.
✨I can have magical moments any day and at any time regardless of where I am or who I’m with.
✨I get to choose how I live this life and I’m choosing to live a life I love.
And of course, once I accepted everything and I felt at peace and even a little excited about celebrating my birthday alone, multiple opportunities to spend my day with others presented themself.
Thank you for all of the birthday love from near and far. I am beyond grateful for the unexpected gifts, messages, calls, meaningful moments shared with those I love and the magic I felt during the moments when I was completely alone.
🙏🏼🥰🧘🏻♀️🥳