15/11/2021
I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis four years ago. I felt it was God’s calling for me to share my journey.
Why I feel this way, I don’t have an answer other than I know God spoke to me while I was in the hospital room.
I wanted to show other women: single moms, that were scared, that faith and a support system, we can survive and thrive. I needed to show my girls that we always will be ok, even in darkness-through faith and love. My biggest support then and now… Sarah and Samantha. My girls.
We know as auto immune warriors, stress does not do our body good. I have been living with an enormous amount of stress, a silent burden that few are aware of, and it got the best of me. And while I blame no one, I have learned. My body has responded and I am now experiencing my first flare since my diagnosis.
I sit from the hospital bed where I am getting immunoglobulin therapy and steroid infusions over the next five days. The hope is that this will reverse the symptoms much more quickly than they may reverse on their own. With MS, you never know what the outcome will be. Of course I hope my outcome is positive. But I won’t lie and say I’m bummed.
I am doing my best to remain positive, putting all the positivity out in the universe that I will be OK, that my new lesions that have been found will subside quickly, and we can get the disease back under control once again. I share this with you never for pity, but only to say that we only have one shot in this life. It is so precious and short. We must not live in a state of unhappiness or live by not being true to ourselves, our beliefs and our morals. I’m saying this for me and for whomever needs to hear this.
There is so much to be grateful for in my life. Next month My daughter will marry the most amazing young man and will become part of a fabulous family. All her Grandparents will be there-and my family and friends-to celebrate! I will be at that wedding celebrating and walking and dancing, even if I have to hold on to someone the entire day and night! That is all I can think about right now-the love that will be present and the gift of life and love.
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