Fibro Fire Goddess

28/01/2025

Went back to Edmonton today and went to the denturist adjust my bottom
Partials which thankfully I did as they were rubbing on back bottom gum causing irritation and then they put the gunk in to make the liner for the top plate let me tell you that stuff is nasty tasting I'm still trying to get rid of it with a strawberry açai refresher from Starbucks 😂 the liner feels weird due to it being soft still and it will be interesting taking my top dentures out tonight to sleep. Living off of soup, boost protein smoothies and timmies chili now lol I told a dear friend of mine I miss food. Back to work tomorrow eek no more sleep in days for me so sad but happy to be going back I miss my crew

23/01/2025

So I have finally did it I went and got my upper teeth pulled out and a full upper denture put in with a partial on the bottom that was on Monday. The actual procedure was pretty simple but let me tell you the eating afterwards is hard. My throat is a little swollen so trying to eat even pasta is hard. I decided tonight that I have to have boost high protein and I hate this stuff but mixed it into a smoothie to help get it into me. I'm tired all day (day 3) and started to have the runs i think due to dehydration. I'm trying to stay awake so I can sleep tonight but even now I want to sleep. 💤

28/09/2024

When you wake up in the morning and have to deal with your Diva. How an 18 yr old can still make up the most ridiculous excuses to get out of stuff is laughable. She needs headphones for school and has known for a week and yet her room looks like it's been hit by a tornado and hasn't cleaned it oh wait she has but admits to dirty it afterwards. And doing a load of laundry 🧺 is keeping it clean when it looks like nothing has been done. Then she tells me her knee hurts (granted she injured it) but she has it bent up on her bed and she could sit on the floor and have it bent picking up stuff, and guess what Diva I have a tooth infection, bad leg, sinus infection and I'm still going to work and cleaning my house, I told her I wrote the book told the book and been there done that anything she uses as an excuse I can give her a reason as to why she could do it. My Soulmate even had asked both goblins from Mon - Thurs " hey you might want to clean your rooms" then on Thursday he said "she's coming in this weekend you may want to clean your rooms" and nope nothing. So Diva still thinks she should get headphones 🎧 for school and little does she know I have headphones for her. But she thinks she deserves them. So Thursday she can have them for school and then afterwards they can come back to us.

Weekends I look forward to seeing my goblins but then this is what I have to deal with instead. My soulmate is amazing and he tries to get them to see and understand but they don't listen of course as they are a teen and young adult they know more than us as we used to think about our folks as well. It happens every generation and us parents get frustrated 😩 as we know the outcome 😂. But we all still keep trying our best by them. So one bud has been cleaning his room for couple of hours and my diva well she's still sitting on her bed with her phone. Little do they know tomorrow morning their phones will be coming to me. As the deal was that if they can't pay for their phones since they don't have jobs then their rooms are to stay clean and they are to help around the house without being asked. Neither have done anything for a month so since they aren't doing their "payment part" then the phones get returned. The s**t show that will happen tomorrow oh boy. Stay tuned........

Side Note: Soulmate and I are going to The Sinners Cabaret tonight.

21/09/2024

This week has been a rollercoaster 🎢 I am learning so much that it's amazing and I love that part but physically and mentally I'm exhausted 😴. I think I came home everyday this week and pretty much slept after work. Thankfully it's the weekend and I have a me lazy weekend so I can lay around and do nothing or clean up around my place. Ordered some food from Savory Bliss and Grill for supper tonight to be delivered so don't have to stand on my feet and cook 👩‍🍳. Hope my warriors out there are fighting with a positive attitude and even though we are exhausted and down sometimes may you still love life, family, & friends! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

14/09/2024

Coughing Attacks:

Does anyone else get these?

Especially in mornings when you wake up, there is always a piece of hard phlegm stuck there and I have to have a coughing fit till it comes out. I blow my nose, I have to like to a snort back and then cough till my throat is burning and raw then once it's done I can drink some water and in a few mins it's like nothing was wrong but in those 20 + minutes it feels like I'm dying.

I talked to an ENT as I had my thyroid glands taken out in 2013 and the surgeon at the time left thyroid cells in which in over the years has grown into this lump in my throat. The Dr. That I saw said it had nothing to do with the phlegm but that I have stomach acid but I'm sorry I don't believe this is apart of stomach acid as this happens only in mornings after sleeping and pretty much every morning.

I have learned that it's apart of my life now. Just hurts and tires me out as they are brutal coughing attacks.

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06/09/2024

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years.’ – Audrey Hepburn

A beautiful soul has passed from this life to meet her husband in the eternal life ahead. Hearing this news today broke a piece of my heart and shedded a few tears at work. This beauty accepted me when I first came to the small town I live in and basically thought of me as a daughter. Throughout the 20 some years she always had a smile and a hug ready for me. I know these last few years she has been suffering and struggling with every day life may she live happily with her husband now and live pain free.

"Mama" you are loved 🥰 and will be thought of everytime I see the crystal canter and crystal glass set. 💋♥️🌺🌺🌺

21/06/2024

This is how I feel sometimes with depression. I feel like I have these little demons melting my insides fighting to get control and sucking the happiness from me.

So happy to have this day over with it was hard to focus. I got it done though and didn't give up. Can I tell you it sucks having depression and controlling it when at work nor am I used to tears yet just randomly that I have to go to the washroom to wipe them away and control my mood, put on a happy face and pretend everything is fu***ng great.

To be able to come home and just lay in bed and let the tears fall to release emotions built up that overwhelm you.

Let's add in that my knee is hurting and so is my foot so pain to the mix just makes you feel wonderful NOT!

Weekend to myself to get this under control and come Monday hit the week hard and hope everything comes out to my side.

I am truly grateful and blessed to have the support of my soulmate who always reminds me of the woman I am and of the woman he loves and cherishes. To have that connection and love 🖤 is one of the reasons I push myself to keep going.

12/11/2023

Lol love this

Start of the week! Let’s all shine bright 🥰🥰

05/11/2023

Weighed myself this morning and finally under 240lbs did a little happy dance. So means my hard work between exercising and eating better plus the dosage increase of Natural Dessicated Thyroid is helping.

Also found a new doctor since my favourite one is leaving me to go back home. Bittersweet moment.

Still bit stressful at work but with my levels balancing out better I don't feel it as much thankfully.

25/10/2023

Sigh life is stressful well not life per se just work life. So much so that my levels for TSH (Thyroid Stimulating Hormone) is high. So the average normal range is from 0.20-6.50 MINE is 7.04!!!!!! The last time is was this bad was in 2018 😞.

So now I have to go to 180mg. Hopefully it will help as I need balance again. I know it's not just relying on the meds it's me too.

I started back on the bowflex and exer bike. Less chocolate and pasta and smoothies lol 😝

And have to find better ways of getting my frustration out with work issues.

And a plus note I finally have a specialist appointment to get the lump in my throat checked out. They told me that I have thyroid cells that got left behind but it's been benign all these years but now they are trying to regrow like a starfish who knew that could happen my doctor didn't lol. So looks like I have another surgery in the future.

28/09/2023

I have learned over my many years that if you don't shed your old self after a trauma or challenge has happened in your life they will keep repeating till you learn from it and move on to who you are meant to be in the presence of time. Don't be scared and don't hold back who you are meant to be it's unhealthy to do so and it will make things worse for you. Keep evolving you will be happier everytime you do.

08/09/2023

So I'm going into my dentist appointment at 12pm with me being thirsty, hungry, sore back, and now a headache since I can't eat before the surgery. I'm so going to be starving by the time this is done and still won't be able to eat for a couple of hours afterwards. But my genie 🧞‍♂️ is getting me Costco muffins as they are soft to eat as I can break of small pieces and suck on the but they fill me up and I brought soup and pasta with me for him to make tonight.

Sigh can't wait to be able to have a salad again and veggies 🥕