29/04/2022
"I Hate My Life"
What a great title to start off a blog about dealing with OCD, right?
No, this won’t actually be a pity party article or anything of the sort. Usually when we hear this statement, a pity party is the first thing we expect to follow. However, this statement is actually the first thing to say during the first step towards a change of lifestyle.
But weren’t we always told that to change your life, you have to change your attitude? And doesn’t that imply always thinking positively? Yep, but don’t forget that a change in lifestyle also means being honest with yourself and honest about your circumstances. Positive affirmations are a necessity, but, let’s be honest, how many of us with OCD, after all day of dealing with the fears and anxieties that prick our brains, at the end of the day, feel completely exhausted and in pain enough to the point of sighing and thinking “I hate my life”.
OCD is a bully. OCD is the roommate that came into your life rent free because he has nothing better to do, and even worse, decides to bum off of your energy and happiness. When you think you’ve finally kicked him out, he brings several of his friends over to have a party of pain and torture. As much as we should love ourselves and look to God for hope, at the end of the day, we need to realize how much OCD is hurting us.
And that begins with the statement, “I hate my life”.
I hate the thoughts.
I hate the doubt
I hate the staring
I hate the cleaning
I hate the need for perfection
I hate the fear
I hate the pain
I hate the excessiveness
And I’m fed up with it.
In order to start walking down the path to OCD management, you need to be fed up with what it’s doing to you. You need to hate your life enough to be ready to make changes. Get angry at it. Let it know how you feel. Tell it that this is it, and that it’s not going to harass you without some retaliation.
Believe it or not, this is something that Jesus himself told us to do.
Jesus told me to hate my life?
Yep.
“Whoever hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” John 12:25
Doesn’t that just mean that you need to love God more than your life?
Exactly. It means that you love Him enough to hate the one thing that causes us to struggle with one of his most important and wonderful commandments:
Be anxious for nothing.
And to also hate it enough to take the first step towards getting your life back.
So get angry. Get fed up. Hate your life.
And get ready to change it.
This won’t be easy. It’ll probably be the most terrifying and uncomfortable journey of your life.
But hey, we hate it anyway.
Let’s begin.