24/09/2022
I transmuted a universal force in my DNA that was the root of chaos & malcontent in my life.
Up until I discovered a way to make peace with this force (these forces) , I had a lot of trouble finding peace in my life.... no matter where I ran to.
Stillness & quiet was rare.
There was always drama happening around me. In my home, with my friends and family. It was very intense.
The people around me, nor I, knew the root of the almost constant chaos & disorder. So I continued to dig for it.
Within the last few years, I found these powers within my psyche.
The origins of fear. The way I describe them... the ones the universe created to rule fear. This was an incredible discovery.
So I faced them. My fears, my demons... I did advanced shadow work. My higher self took me on vision quests. The mushrooms gave me powerful insights on how I could lift the viel on these shadows for myself & now I am being shown how to share this with my community.
All of this Alchemy, just so I could rest, eat well, feel safe & have a place to call home.
Just last night I went for a bike ride & took selfies next to the river.
This is my life now. This is what I've been cultivating for years. The ability to live somewhere I can clear my mind.
Dancing with sun flowers and soft desert wind. Looking up at fluffy clouds. Crying with joy. I have found salvation.
My story may not mean much to some, but those aren't the ones I'm here to hold space for. If you're reading this, then clearly it's for you.
Let thee find balance.
The ability to surrender & lay down your swords without giving up your integrity or your boundaries.
May your eyes see new places, may the sun shine its light on a pathway to your own salvation. Made just for you.
May you find your way through the bramble, let the roots of your trauma wither & die.
May you open your heart to the cosmos & find the power of your infinite self.
So you can walk through the flowers, without a single other thought on your mind. Blessed Be.