29/10/2023
When all this started back in 2019 I told myself don't get excited because not everything that is said is or going to happen. When they called my dad this year saying that the NIH is ready for you and they can help you, I was like ok cool. Still didn't get excited! Everyone around me is so excited and so sure of what the outcome wil be. I was Always realistic and would say I don't like to say this is a Cure for sc! Even tho I was going back and forth i would still tell myself this might not even work, I might not even get to the end result! For others I keep a smile on my face and stay upbeat and positive. It's easier to say im good with a smile on my face then explain why I maybe sad! I have watched 5 other people get their transplant and have good results! I made sure I didn't allow myself to get excited about mine until I heard we got enough stem cells! My last visit is when I started to let myself get excited! To know this will be my last trip and I won't be receiving my transplant really upsets me! I gotta go back to my mindset of my SC will stay the same or get worse 😕. Well now I can get my life back to what it was before this interruption. Back to over pushing myself for the life I want while having hospital visits every month! I have met Amazing people through this journey! I have new life long brothers and sisters now! I'm glad all of their transplants were successful! That all I could ask for!
Idk why God put me where I am an gave me this disease, I need to hurry and figure it out! I'm running out of steam for real! Smh I'm almost 30. We only live up to 52 fpe real
