04/26/2022
April has come and almost gone already, and I didn't even realize it's been over 6 months now since I started Dirt and Roses Home Care! I'm so blessed and lucky to be able to do what I love to do for myself, with such an amazing group of clients. I feel so welcome and accepted with all of them.
I used to wake up every morning waiting for the bad news. The anxiety that a management position gave me was incredible. In the end, the only person I have any control over is myself. The best I can do in this lifetime is to keep my side of the street clean, and hope it inspires others to plant their own garden one day.
When I decided to leave my position I was in for almost 5 years, I remember so confused and hurt and unsure of what to do. My gut had told me for about 6 months that something was wrong, even though everyone around me told me that things were just fine. I felt it in my bones that I wasn't being told the full truth, and as I was slowly inching towards the exit, one day my gut gave me a very simple solution to everything, and that little voice in my head simply stated, "jump." So I did.
What happened next was nothing short of proof that the universe has my back. I was due to take my CNA test again the next day, which was the biggest contingency of starting a new position the next week. I did, and started promptly with a new company.
Unfortunately though, just as I was getting settled in, I got a call from one of the owners saying that the investor pulled out, and they would have to shut their doors at the end of the week. It was completely a surreal moment, because I should've been sad, confused, and hurt, but my boss had offered my two clients I was seeing to me to take on privately and in that moment, it all clicked. I got off the phone, and said out loud to no one in particular that I was going to start my own company and it will be named Dirt and Roses Home Care. In a complete Hail Mary, I applied for my LLC, got a website, wrote my paperwork and contracts, marketed myself, and built my company from scratch brick by brick.
In the end, my gut was right. My old company hit a wall about 6 months after I left, and many truths came to light. Thankfully the person who got my old position was able to take over before too much damage was done to the clients and employees, and they got a fresh start. Some days, I miss working with all of them, but in the end, I really love just being responsible for myself. Without that added stress on my heart, I've been able to heal so much of the pain and anxiety I used to have. I wake up every day excited to see my clients and feeling like I'm doing some good. I still keep on contact with a lot of the good people I used to work with, but now, I can talk with them as friends instead of as a boss. The universe brought me here for a reason, and I'll never again question my intuition.
We all deserve to be happy. Life is just far too short not to be. Trust your gut, trust your instincts, and allow the universe to guide you. Everything will be alright in the end.
