28/02/2023
a year ago, I never would’ve thought I’d need a higher level of care. a year ago, I never would’ve imagined going into residential treatment. a year ago, you couldn’t convince me that I needed it.
but going to treatment saved my life.
there’s a lot of stigma around going to treatment and I just wanted to be the voice on your feed today that says, it’s okay. if you need treatment, that’s okay. if you don’t need treatment, that’s okay. either option doesn’t make your eating disorder any more or less valid. the truth is, it’ll never be satisfied with wherever you are. before going to treatment, Ed told me that I “never got that bad.” once in treatment, Ed told me I “wasn’t sick enough.”
in April of 2022, I wrote in my journal how embarrassing it felt to have to go to treatment. I was terrified. of treatment, of admitting I needed help, of what others would think.
now, I’m not embarrassed at all, even in the slightest, that I went to treatment. it saved me. I’m proud of myself for taking care of me this time.
if you or your treatment team are considering treatment, I’m here to tell you that you’re going to be okay. it’s hard, yes. but it’s so worth it. I promise you it gets easier. you don’t deserve to suffer any more.
recovery is possible.
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