15/12/2022
This is the incoherent bable that floats 24/7 in my head. I promise this is not about "recovery" with a bunch of before of before and after ever though I am INSANELY proud of how far a few of my friends have come over the last 3 years. I am in absolute awe of their dedication to sobriety no matter the form.
This is a page dedicated to my loosing my g*t dam mind over several months and my decision to step away from every single one and every single person. Leave the love of my life until he can sort his issues and get his substance issue manageable.Packing up my dog and moving to the very last place I ever wanted to go.
Waldo Florida,population 840. 300 are church elders or involved heavily in the school or my brothers youth outreach basketball weekly club) The rest walk around looking like the walking dead )meath/coke and whatever makes you beat on folks windows and doors at 3 am talking nonsense night after night. We are the only occupied house currently on this street. 8t is a. Crazy adventure.
Guess what
I cry 3 times a day and have worked out hell on the frout with a scrubby but I am thriving. I get out of bed upset now. I go outside each day,not each month. I actually cook real food. Southern food. Good food and eat some of it.
I see my therapist and family practice and show up .for appointments. I am able to shower and wash my hair.
I am doing the work to save myself. For so long I didn't feed myself,showed,do laundry,let muly plants die. Went no contact with. Everyone. I am worthy of loving myself. You are. As well.
Be fu***ng nice. Even when it doesn't make u happy. Even what if they deserve it .
Happy people are not usually happy..,.. look it up. Seriously Google me goog