22/03/2023
fear /fir/
noun
an unpleasant, often strong, emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger and accompanied by increased autonomic activity
When I was little, fear and anxiety ruled my life. I struggled with making even the simplest of decisions, in fear, that it was the wrong one or something bad might happen. Over the past 3 years, fear has resurfaced its ugly head into my life: fear of sickness, fear of job loss, fear of failure, fear of death, fear of being alone.
Since *Vid, I am considered what you call a âLong Haulerâ. I have spent thousands of dollars going from Dr. to Dr. running tests to figure out what is wrong with me, with not much to show forth. While I have some answers now â I am still in physical + emotional pain daily. I continue to wrestle with anxieties. Sometimes I wonder if Iâm going in the right direction by trying different paths + avenues of my holistic healing journeyâŚ
But, it is human nature to want to avoid any emotions that produce fear. I mean who wants to walk directly into what promises or has the possibility to become a painful experience?
Fear kept me from doing the things I loved, loving people + showing up for them, serving my community, and being able to function as a corporate bound adult. Fear gripped on to me and said: âGive up, youâll never make it. This test is going to show something awful. Prepare for the worst. Youâve been rejected X amount of times, why even bother. Youâll never get better. Sickness will run and rule your life. Something bad is going to happen if you go out with your friends. You canât breathe - youâre going to die. Youâre all alone with no answers. What if you fail? Youâll be stuck in fight or flight forever. Your nervous system will never regulateâŚ.â
Panic button presssssssssed.
So swipe for some tools that personally helped me get through these tough years of fear + anxiety ruling my life
Am I still run by fear + anxiety on a daily basis? Absolutely. But Iâm not BOUND to it anymore. Iâve learned to do it scared. Feel the fear and do it anyway.
I am safe. I am loved. I matter.
FEAR / accept it ¡ identify it ¡ feel it ¡ face it