02/01/2025
Lolol. I’m just venting. Then delete. This was a follow up post to a post in special needs groups. 💯IEP was done the beginning of December 2024. School started August 2024. I enrolled him June 2024.
Still hasn’t started because they can’t find any teachers.
The IEP was done with ppl who will not be able to teach him. It’s been 6 months and to me school is almost over by the time they find someone.
I’m looking for home hospital.
Going to school is not an option with all his medical fragilities.
Me trying to be his educator is not an option. I already do PT and OT at home as a mom and I know nothing except what I’ve taught myself from YouTube. I want real educators who when to school to teach special needs kids. I want and need help and this is what they get paid to do. He just turned 6 a couple days ago.
For five years I’ve already struggled trying to get Early Intervention which did nothing because educators were all fresh graduates and would YouTube things at my home or utilize his time to write notes and clean up.
I’m tired. I’m exhausted.
I see other parents getting what they need and I’m failing to provide because everyone I turn too doesn’t fall through. I’m tired. I’m hurt.
I have to deal with this for life. Friends don’t understand.
No one has a kid like mine who can’t do anything for himself. No one has a kid who can’t walk, talk, eat, breathe, sit up, or think for themselves. I’m exhausted with constant appts and searching for help. I do get breaks as my husband and kids help me.
I want the services that ppl always claim are available but every time I inquire and call they are not at all available.
He’s getting heavy. No wheelchair.
I won’t always be able to hold him. I’m getting older. I am tired. I usually post and delete because I am venting and tired.
I am exhausted. I just want my son to say mom but he can’t communicate. He can’t tell me if he is hurting or itching.
He can’t scratch himself if he itches.
He has to adapt to whatever his environment is because he relies on us to do all the thinking for him.
Friends who work in education claim they will help when they feel sorry but never ever fall through.
Close friends work in special ed but are unable to help or sometimes say things to me that make me feel like I must’ve done something in my life to deserve this like I’m being punished by God.
A few have even said weird things to me like that while I have sat in the hospital with them and their kid when their kids didn’t feel well even while my own was in the hospital so I could try and help them.
I’m tired of everyone. I don’t trust anyone other than my husband and kids.
I’m tired of fake friends.
I’m tired of reaching out.
I have no family.
My mom and dad are dead beats who weren’t great parents to me.
I moved out at 16 and I’m now almost 42.
I started working when I was 12 to move my family to California.
We moved here when I was 14.
I have worked all my life. 40 years of working.
I am successful but for some reason I have a kid who will not be success although I was blessed with 4 other kids who are independent and help me tremendously. This is not their fight.
My mom and dad and my siblings don’t know my kids. They’ve never seen my son. Or my daughter. The only one who tried is my sister. I am thankful for her. I am tired.
But I will continue to bounce back like I always do. Irebuke anyone who secretly plots on my family and in the name of Jesus.
Amen.
Lolol my other kid took this video when we weren’t looking.
My daughter took this video unbeknownst to me. I just want my son to have a capable and happy life.
