21/04/2022
Even though being a mother is one of the most challenging things I have ever taken on, most days I’m absolution in love with being a mommy. It is one of the most fulfilling, rewarding and wonderful things that ever happened to me.
Last night, however, I had a moment of exhausted defeat. As you know McKinley was pretty sick earlier this week. She ended up at the ED one night because she was having difficulty breathing well and sounded extremely croupy. She was treated for croup and a low grade fever and send home.
She has been recovering well all week but even though recovering well, she has been a bit more fussy.
All that to say last evening while getting them both their baths and to bed, both of them crying…….. at the same time or at times they may even have been screaming 😱 I had a moment of “I just don’t want to do this tonight”, a moment of defeat, of utter exhaustion, a moment of feeling like I just wasn’t enough😭
When you look at the picture above that was taken this morning after sleeping in with both of them in our bed. Side note: I don’t usually let our children sleep in our bed. I usually don’t sleep well with them kicking me in my ribs 🤣 maybe that shows just how exhausted I was this morning 🤣
Anyway as I was saying about the picture above. I woke up late from a nudge from my husband pointing to our 2 babies holding hands while watching “cocomelon” and letting mommy and daddy sleep in. That is all it took to restore me back to energy and mommy mode.
That so motherhood on a nutshell. They take us to the brink of defeat one moment while the next moment giving us so much hope and love.
Let the hard make us so much more appreciative of the good. Let’s hold on to the moments like the one above and let go of all else.
