
12/20/2024
❤️ Dearest community,
I’m taking a pause.
Many of you know that I have spent the last several years being a busy busy bee, offering dances, women’s programs, teen programs, ceremony, wilderness journeys, backpacking, etc.
It was a very fulfilling journey, and truly felt like my soul’s work.
However, in the past year or so, I have started to feel a call to pause. I ignored this call for a while. In some ways I did pause- I stopped DJing and offering dances. But in many other ways I didn’t pause.
At many times, the call to pause felt excruciatingly painful... “Why would I stop my soul’s work? Why would I stop offering nature-connection and embodiment journeys to my community? Why am I feeling this way?! The world needs this work!”
Despite my attempts to ignore the call, it has not gone away, and instead has only become more apparent.
In the past month or so, I have finally started surrendering to the call. I am no longer filling my schedule with offerings. Yes, I have my “survival dance” - backpack guiding, graduate school to become a therapist, part-time administrative work....the work I need to make money and survive, which thankfully is fulfilling work.
But I’m not offering my own creations.
And while I thought pausing my offerings would be the most painful thing, I now realize that ignoring the call was the source of my suffering.
In surrendering to the pause, I feel free, and recognize what my soul has been yearning for- quiet, mystery, emptiness.
I say all this partly because my lovely ego wants to explain to you all why I’m not offering any dances and programs right now. AND, I also want to honor my work and all of you who have created the magic with me. I am in awe of the co-facilitators and participants who have come together to love and listen to the Earth with me.
I love you all. I really have loved this work. But it’s time for me to listen to the mystery.
I’m not sure how long this pause will be- a month, several months, a year, years? Time does not matter to me. What does matter, is that I’m truly listening. And when I do offer you all my soul’s creations again, I’m doing so from a place of authenticity.
So I’m listening.
*Part of this pause is a pause from social media. I will be inactive on here for at least the month of January, maybe longer. I am considering deleting it all together. So please, if you want to connect with me, please call me, email me, or find me! You can also sign up for my newsletter through my website, which I’ll be sending occasional life updates*
Wishing you all deep listening to the magical mystery of life.
With love from me to you this Winter Solstice,
Deanna
P.S. this beautiful photo was created by Jason Abraham Photography with the redwoods at Henry Cowell 🥰