20/11/2021
Meet Kim, a labor and delivery nurse. "When I got married, I did the math: How many hours of paid time off would I need to save up for maternity leave? Between the occasional week of vacation, it took almost two years to save up enough hours. TWO. YEARS. And when I unexpectedly needed to take a leave of absence in the Summer of 2020, I had to use the PTO I had so patiently saved up. I went back to work at the end of that summer, and by Fall we were pregnant with our little Josephine.
My employer’s Human Resources department talked me through the confusing hodge-podge of terms that would make up my maternity leave. You know how it goes, “First you do this, then this kicks in, but you still have to supplement it. And then once it runs out, you’re on your own, kid.” Knowing that my PTO bank was quite small after my leave of absence the Summer prior, I thought I was prepared for what was about to happen.
I was 7 weeks postpartum when I got a paycheck for $1.41.
I called HR because I thought something must’ve gone wrong. But it wasn’t, and what followed a week later was a letter from my employer, “Missed Deductions.” Learning I would not only spend the next 2 months without a paycheck but would also be required to pay my employer for my benefits while on maternity leave was shocking. HR offered me a few options to repay them, but ultimately I chose to cut them a check, writing “Maternity leave” in the note line. It was the second time that I cried in my daughter’s life. I felt so worthless in those moments that I didn’t even want my daughter to look at me. I had my husband come and take her from me because I didn’t want her to sense my anguish. It felt like the Sadness character from Inside Out had touched my happy memory, the memory of my first days with my daughter, and permanently turned it blue.
It took a lot for us to bring Josephine into this world. There were many tears, an insane amount of stress and worry, but none of that compared to how I felt writing this check out to my employer for my maternity leave." - Kim