Healing Growth

23/08/2024

My people, we really need to take a closer look at ourselves and the things that motivate us and drive us. Not always are we motivated by good things. Sometimes fear motivates us, so does greed, so does shame... we make illogical decisions and then create strongholds to defend those decisions. We see it when people are campaigning for their favourite politicians and we see it here with fandoms.
Getting to know yourself and what triggers you will help you. Sure its a difficult journey facing yourself in the mirror but it's so much more helpful when you realize how the shame of being seen a certain way by a certain crowd causes you to act illogically.
My empathy is with those who lost the money, for sure the person to blame who has disappeared with the cash needs to be prosecuted but going by how one of the same criminals was taken to police and resurrected on these streets doing the same business it might be helpful to instead self examine and then do the due diligence in learning about other slower, less exciting investments but more secure...

20/08/2024

I saw the story of the young boy who had been walking from Western and was found in Kericho. He was walking to Nairobi to find his mum.
Sometimes parents feel like they have no choice but to leave their kids with relatives and people they themselves don't trust. The price you pay might be too high. Pray and ask God for another option and another way out. The torment children go through is often not worth it. These children need care and if it cannot be found with family look at friends or others who genuinely care for the child. In the movie Matilda she was safer and more peaceful with her teacher than with her own family. Ask God for where your child will flourish if you have no other choice. Then also ask for the wisdom to undo the traumas that come by the separations.

Here are some of my reflections on my own journey...

31/07/2024

I get amazed sometimes at how much I advocate for healing and God's daughters being set free from trauma and pain. My desire is that we may truly heal, let go of burdens, and thrive in who God created us to be.
There is so much we carry, our own and some more from generations past and from life itself. For those in pain, there is another side. May God give us courage to walk through the difficult paths - the valleys of the shadow of death to the other side.

01/06/2024

This is one of the most profound CTA sessions I have ever watched. Alcoholism is one of those things hidden in families. The shame and shackles of it are so overwhelming yet drinking is so socially accepted. Eric's story is for anyone and everyone to listen to so that they can understand what the treacherous road of recovery. In Short God does it.... Watch, share and learn.

The most impactful education on addiction comes from those who have bravely battled their way out of its clutches. Eric Mutiso shares his journey unfiltered,...

17/04/2024

Every once in a while a book comes that shakes people's worlds. This week is the one year anniversary of Deborah Auko's Rough Silk.
It honestly had the best digital campaign and launch I had ever seen and the reviews... It is the type of book that turns your world inside out. A book that makes you reflect on things that you thought you had buried deep inside with some you had even forgotten. The type that makes you see your loved ones in a new light and admit the things that hang in the air unsaid.
If anything read it.... It's available at Nuria...

She recently said that there are people who buy the book but do not accept delivery because they know they are not ready to read it yet. Can you tell I am one of them? I have been in a season of hibernating and working on resolving things. It is slowly coming to an end. When it ends, my reward is reading the book. Thank you Deborah Auko for trail blazing this path. Also the world is a dengu because I once worked with Claude Kellyrist many years ago

17/01/2024

Summary Your mother is your first female relationship. It sets the stage for so much in your life. Still, basically, it is the template for how you see yourself, what you believe about how you should be treated, what you require and demand from relationships with women, how you carry yourself in those relationships and what you tolerate. We discuss how this template shows up for those of us who have Mother Wounds and what we can do....

Summary Your mother is your first female relationship. It sets the stage for so much in your life. Still, basically, it is the template for how you see yourself, what you believe about how you shou…

13/12/2023

There is a deep well of grief within me- something happened that I am not yet ready to talk about, if you are inclined to pray- please keep us in your prayers. The truth is that this is life and love and loss- the journey we all go through one way or another. The thing though that I am learning and seeing is how my past journey on healing has meant that this time even with the depths of pain I am experiencing I am clear that the Hand of God is carrying me, carrying us and in a completely different way. It is not that God has not been there in the past. It is that with the well of trauma each life happening would drag me down to 20 or more instances of pain because it uncovered every other wound and pain and I would be left wallowing in all of that pain plus the current one that was happening.

This time there has been a grace yet still the grieving has happened- I have cried, I have prayed, I have allowed people in more than in the past even though there have been times I have forgotten I have been surrounded by love, care, prayers and healing.

One of the things I chose to do was to attend grief therapy- the interesting thing about grief is that it is the biggest Controversy of the heart but we never realise it. We have grief over losing a job, losing a friend, losing a relative, losing your perceived position or status, retirement, losing a relationship, losing a marriage, losing an opportunity, losing a house, really losing anything both expectedly or unexpectedly.

Loss and grief get entangled with your first loss and the 12th one and all of them create a mishmash within you. The therapist used the analogy of how when you leave a bucket outside to catch rainwater after some time it will have dirt/sediment at the bottom and clear water at the top. When it rains again the water will become muddy because the sediment and the water get mixed up.

This is the perfect description of how losses entangle themselves with guilt, shame, fear, frustration, exhaustion and much more that we don’t always recognize until we start talking. It almost feels as if all these losses cause thorns to spring up within us- and just like the parable they spring up and choke us.

I will leave it at this for today- unravel the grief and grievances. The Controversies of the heart that you are carrying.