09/06/2023
This week has had its ups and downs. At one point earlier in the week, I felt like I was having a panic attack. Last night I was up till after midnight, unable to sleep due to my anxiety. Today I feel joyful. In this photo, I am sitting on the grass outside hanging out with one of my dog clients. Sunshine and puppy cuddles have a way of filling my heart with happiness. The weather here in Massachusetts has been really blah lately. Very cloudy. It always has such an effect on my mood. I tend to make bad financial decisions when I’m feeling down or stressed. This has always been my problem.
I’m so close to the finish line of my debtfree journey. I know that I’m going to look back in six months and be so glad that I hustled the way that I did this year. Am I exhausted in this moment? Yes I am. But I’m doing something I love every day. I am thankful for my debt-free journey because without it, I never would’ve discovered my passion for caring for animals.
I’m not sure why I’m sharing all of this with you right now, but I’m just trying to keep it real here. Life is messy. I have 3 kids and a growing business that keep me busy. I tend to put myself last and it’s just not sustainable anymore. I need to make sure to set aside some time for myself every week, this week has shown me that. I went through a traumatic experience last week and it took me days to process it all, if last night was any indication I think I am still processing it.
I was bit by a dog client and it felt like I had been betrayed by a close friend. How could someone I care for so much do this to me? I thought we had built a relationship of trust over the last year and then it all changed in a split second. It broke my soul a bit and I am still recovering.
Here’s hoping the sun comes out around here soon and that I can manage to find some time for me this month while sticking to my budget and goals!