31/03/2023
{The grind no one sees}
To say it was worth it, absolutely!
To say it was easy, farthest from the truth.
From the days of teaching myself how to file FAFSA/taxes — to signing student loan promissory notes with the persistent thought if I fail idk if I’ll ever financially recover.
I hid this constant pressure of not succeeding, I’ve always tried to wear this mask of “I’m ok, I got this”. The continuous grind disguised my moments of weakness. To say that I was handling my s**t - it was often a front, I’ve always been scared of burdening my family with my failures.
This fear served as motivation, the fuel that kept the fire burning. I leveraged fear to initiate action and eliminate this overhanging debt. But I also realized fear as motivation is exhausting, burdensome & temporary. The outcome is far better than the process - I’ve learned financial freedom is the freedom from fear.
For those who question if they can do it, just believe in yourself - remove the doubt - you will do this. And for others who know someone going through something similar, reach out to check in w/them…you most likely are the motivation that will get them through another day.
