
01/07/2025
Against the odds.
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I'll turn 60 on the 28th, and birthdays are a big deal for me. Because, since before birth, the odds have been against me.
What do I mean by that?
1) My mom had a tubal ligation after her 3rd daughter was born. There was .02% chance of that procedure wearing off. So here I am, the 4th Meyers daughter.
2) Reckless living - mostly due to the destructive effects of undiagnosed trauma and untreated addiction - should have killed me over and over.
3) There have been three attempts on my life.
4) And I've survived five su***de attempts.
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First, let me assure you - the attempts and reckless living are 100% behind me. I've been diligently addressing and recovering from early-life trauma since 1990; and I've been sober since 2002. I have communities, resources, and skills that support a more beautiful life than ever. Ohhh, there's lots of room for improvement! Yet the beauty is big.
So, meh. 🤷🏼♀️ What's the big deal?
Clearly I was meant to be here. It took me some time to believe that fact and behave accordingly. These days I am thoroughly convinced, and I aim to honor the gift of life as well as possible. I mean, seriously - .02% and I made it through? That's not a miracle, that's a scientifically proven opportunity to explore each moment with marvel, wonder, curiosity, and awe. And since I've been on the path of recovery, even the horrible moments have led to amazing realizations, growth, and more opportunity.
I have nothing to prove or hide - sometimes growth comes after a period of devastation and wrestling - naturally. Y'all have heard the stories and witnessed the process! Yet HERE I AM. Still...again...now... willing to stick around and see what's next. Let's hope and pray the future involves even more beauty in some pressingly important ways... 🤞🏼🍀🛐
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Please, if you (or someone you know) is considering su***de - tell someone. Call the 988 Su***de & Crisis Lifeline , seek a therapist, confide in clergy. We are meant to be here, you and I. Sometimes it just takes a lot of tests and trials until the beauty replaces the pain, and skills replace futility.
Please stay.
Infinitely grateful for 2nd 4th 6th etc chances. Much love to you all.
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