Carla vs. Cancer

28/10/2025

I'm tired. Tired of being sick. Tired of the life and death decisions I make, Tired of the impending fear, Tired of the fight. I'll keep fighting, just getting to be a never ending weight on my shoulders that is heavy and sad. It's exhausting and I'm not even working. Just the day to day battles are a lot. I hate making decisions on guessing how long I might live.....

13/09/2025

It's been a minute. I'm slowly but surely losing abilities to function. The cancer grows when I'm not on chemo, although I've tried to remain on chemo as much as I can. Lately I've been battling stomach issues again. Thankfully I've got a new plan that seems to be working. I'm so grateful for my family and friends as they watch this regression in my abilities and love and support me to the best of their ability. My physical strength is minimal if at all. My mental health has been up and down from this long war that I've been fighting. My time here is still unsure but it's becoming sooner than later. In July it was 4 years since my initial diagnosis. I'll keep fighting but know I have little control over the ultimate outcome. Life has been overwhelming for me and I know I'm lucky in many ways I can't see how this diagnosis is in any way deserved by me. Enough pity party. I'll keep pushing and maybe make it to 50yo. Love you all and all of your kindness in my personal trials.

07/02/2025

I'm on my way to Florida for a week then cruising Mexico for another week. Ted and Ally are great chauffeurs. I'm super excited for this opportunity to leave the USA for the first time and have a blast with my friends on a beautiful cruise. Should I try to find the Golden Girls house while in Miami? Lol
The last week I fought the virus going around and that sucks with a weak immune system. Thank goodness I'm feeling mostly back to good so I didn't have to miss this vacation!
I had scheduled family pics last weekend and had to cancel to go to the ED due to severe stomach pain. I felt horrible and hoping to still get some soon before I lose my gorgeous looks. 😅😅😅
I start back up on chemo upon my return. I felt like my chemo break wasn't great because I think I picked up every sickness this last month.
I'll share some pics soon. Love you all!!!!

31/01/2025

I'm doing really well, I'm on a chemo break. Usually I feel great on a break but some of the negative side effects are still lingering. Nothing too bad though. I go back on chemo after my cruise. I'll be in Florida for a week then off to cruise Mexico for a week! I'm so excited to get this off my bucket list! I'm so grateful for all of my friends and their continued love and support. I've been truly blessed. My work at Innovative Care Services is going great, I'm back into counseling and love it!! Love you all! Stay safe!!

28/12/2024

Had chemo last week and feeling ok. Just weak and lots of neuropathy issues. But feeling good otherwise. I'm happy and ready for a new year. This 1 was tough. Financially, physically,emotionally, etc. I have so many people in my life in grateful for. Thanks Autumn Rank, Rose Fast, Paul Van Roy, Chuck and Debbie Van Roy, Dawn Craft, Frank BB, Bryan and KB Monfils and many others. This year I wouldn't have survived without you. Love you so much!

01/12/2024

Had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed the day immensely. Friday woke up chemo sick and haven't done much since. I'm feeling much better today just extremely weak. Having a family get together today so I'm excited for that. The 5th treatment seems to be where I start having the most difficulty and then it lingers and gets worse with more treatment. I'm hoping not but seems to be how it's going. I'm doing my best to stay positive and get through this set back. Praying for feeling healthy. Love you all and happy holidays!!

24/11/2024

Update, I've done 4 treatments of chemo this last round and the CT scan showed reduction in size of my tumors in my lungs and liver as well as some dying. I go back next week for treatment 5. I'm feeling good and chemo hasn't been horrible this time around. I have a few lingering side effects but nothing horrible. I think having a better mental health status and less stress has been a huge factor of my well being. I love each and every one of you who continue to pray and root for me. I appreciate more than you'll ever know. Thank you!!

29/10/2024

24/10/2024

Today the doctor said if I quit chemo for good I have months to live. Not years, not necessarily a few months but so few years that it would be counted in months. I'm doing chemo now. Going to take a break during the holidays and for my cruise. But fearful of the limitations because life is short enough. Being cut this short hurts. I guess God is calling me home sooner than I'd like. Danielle and I are divorced, it was a toxic relationship. I'll always love her and wish her the best but I'm better off not being in her life. I'm with my daughter and enjoying the life I have. With a broken heart and death sentence I'm pushing forward and staying positive. I love you all and sorry I wasn't in a mindset this last year to update everyone. I'm in a good place now and hope it continues. Enjoy every day like it's your last. 😊

27/11/2023

Hello friends and family. This is the first time I'm posting a request for myself but I'm beyond desperate. I'm financially behind and cannot catch up with bills. I'm sleeping on Autumn's futon and need a bedroom but can barely afford the application fees for another apartment. I've been unable to work at all this last week due to digestive issues. I'm in the ER for the 3rd time in a week and half trying to get this fixed. I'm starting chemo again next week and that makes work impossible. I can't afford to live off of the disability alone. Autumn's dad passing was hard and she took a week off of work to grieve but doesn't get paid for it. I don't want to start a go fund me so I'm just giving my venmo and PayPal info if you're able to help I appreciate anything. Thank you very much!!!!
Venmo: -VanRoy
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05/10/2023

There's no easy way to be happy when you have a terminal illness. It's making really think more about life I want and life I have. I've now had many doctors confirm my cancer is spread throughout my body and they don't seem positive on where it could all be. In my liver, lungs, o***y, abdominal lining. I don't know if there's more elsewhere. Having so many experts tell me I'm dying takes away my hope and my dreams. I'm lost in my head with a life full of suffering that continues. I can put on a happy face and pretend it's all ok. It just isn't and I'm tired of the pain. I can't give my daughter the mother she needs and it breaks my heart. She deserves so much more than she's been given. I love her so much. God does give you more than you can handle. I love you all. I'm going to still fight. I'll never give up.