15/03/2024
March 15…. 6 years ago this was a stressful morning. It was snowing and there was a 2 hour delay for the kids school. while we were getting ready I got a phone call from the hospital that the first case cancelled and how fast could we get there? Lots of hugs and kisses to my babies, dropped them off at a friends (so thankful for them!!) lots of deep breaths and off Josh and I went. I don’t think I even had time to think about being nervous…. We checked in and they brought us right back to pre op where all the fun started… the only time I cried was when they thought I had a fever and mentioned postponing! We Talked with my amazing surgeon, got some good meds and off I went to say see ya later to my left breast and the cancer that was growing in it.
Looking back it seems like it was so long ago that I started on the most important ride of my life, and then other days, it seems like it was just yesterday. I can remember the smallest of details from that day, but then I cant remember what I did 3 days ago! LOL
After a very long, and lovely nap, I woke up in recovery and remember thinking that I had to stay positive for my family…. Oddly enough I was happy, I was happy it was over and I wasn’t feeling icky, or really even much pain. I would later realize that was because of the lovely meds they give you , but still even though I was probably pretty high I remember waving to Josh, and my parents when they came in to see me. I remember loving the ginger ale the nurse got for me, and being excited to get some food – the surgery was around 8 hours!
I wont rehash all the things I remember about that day, Im sure most of you are like, oh another post on her anniversary date… blah, blah… yay she is cancer free…. But to anyone who is still in the midst of your journey, starting your journey or helping someone who is going through it , just remember that there is a day where the sun will shine again, and you will laugh and smile, and love…. Your life will forever be changed by this, so choose to embrace it and fight however you can, but please don’t choose to wallow and give up. I truly feel that if I didn’t have my kids it would have been much harder for me to stay positive and fight. I was determined that I would do whatever I could to keep it from traumatizing them any more than it already had.
Since that day there have been multiple surgeries, reactions, chemo, meds, test etc… but each one brought me closer to today March 15,2024
Thank you to everyone who has supported me from the beginning and still checks in on me now, 6 years later. You are my people. You know who you are, and I love you.
6 years cancer free… here’s to at least 6 more!!