
09/04/2020
And then, one day, everything changed. Just like that. Even though it seems peaceful and calm when I gaze out of the window, nothing is the same.
And it hurts. Yes, it's painful. And worrying.
Here we are on lockdown. Week, I really don't know. Only allowed out for supplies and once a day for exercise. Controlled.
It seems so wrong, but I do as I am told. I miss the daily grind, being busy and everyone bustling about.
So now what? That is the question. Nothing will ever be as it was, one way or another. Everything has changed.
But wait, isn't that what we wanted? Change? Yeah well, but not like this. Not this manipulation of the masses.
But that's how change happens. And now everyone is thrown out of their comfort zone. EVERYONE.
And now what?
Well, we can wait, or keep busy, or hustle, or complain, or rest.
All is good. All is valid. All is okay to do.
What I have decided to do is to explore my connection to HER, our Great Mother and my Ancestors. To find sacred spaces of deep connection and to dream.
As Toko-pa Turner writes in her book 'Belonging' (which I highly recommend) in our dreams we find a true centre from which to relate meaningfully to the rest of the world.
Dreaming is listening to the mystery that gathers and coheres us. Here we can build our trust in HER.
To restore the feminine in our lives and with that the world, we must follow where the energy wants us to go.
This is where I am right now, dreaming, following the breadcrumbs I am shown.
Blessed be 🙏