The Survivor Manual

05/12/2023

Happy Birthday- i hope your day was full of celebration!

Arquivo Maracangaya

19/11/2023

Latest update: 11/19/23

Hi all,

I haven’t updated for a while, so I hope you haven’t forgotten me. I’m here, I am fighting and I am doing my best to stay out of the “woe is me” dump. (Somedays that’s a challenge).

I have had 6 chemo treatments as of today. He says they are giving me a less harsh dose so I can manage it a little easier – but it is kicking my butt some days. I have chemo every other week now, so my body can adjust before it gets hit again. So I do have a few good days, I just don’t ever know when they will be. It’s kinda frustrating, and makes it nearly impossible to plan anything in advance. I’m going to have to try and learn spontaneity. LOL

I have 3 more rounds of chemo, they will do another pet scan to determine if surgery is an option. They see that the tumor is leaning on a major artery. They can’t tell whether it is entwined with the artery or just laying on it. So, Whipple surgery is a tough one, but it is the most successful way to cure pancreatic cancer. (2-6 month recovery). I hope they are right and I can have the surgery. It might be tough, but it’s the only way to really cure this. (and for many the tumor comes back within 5 years, but I’ll take it).

I am doing all I can to keep my body strong enough to handle this attack on it. I have lost my sense of taste, and appetite and about 50lbs. It is a huge struggle to get nutrition into my body. Even water tastes terrible….. ugh! I do what I can, and I utilize the lack of appetite to do some water fasts. (Starve the tumor to death – without killing me).

My spirits are usually pretty good. After chemo I have 3-5 days that are bad. I get better, feel better for 3-5 days and then I have chemo again. I have bad days when I can’t keep even a swallow of water down, and I still have more good days than terrible days.

Please keep me in your prays, pull a card for me, send me your love and all of the energy that goes with it. I swear to you I can often feel with someone has sent me energy. My son has given me music with cancer killing vibrations to listen to as I fall asleep. I love falling asleep to the knowledge that this is not something that will hurt me, and I believe in energy, so bring me all the good energy.
Please also share my Go Fund Me. The $ that has been collected has been used to make payments to continue treatment. We are done fighting with Medicaid and we didn’t win. It was just taking too much out of me to continue the battle that I felt I was not going to win. The poverty level for 2 people is $1,643. Unfortunately who can live on that a month. We make enough to be caught in the middle of, not enough to live on, but it is too much to qualify for help. So please share my go fund me, and ask your friends to share it too.

I have a Dr. appoint on Wednesday this is what my precheck-in sheet says: (See the screen shot below). I have already used my go fund me donations to pay what I can – but I’m not even close, so if you could share my page with everyone and ask them to share it too….. my gratitude will be living my life to the fullest.

Thank you all for your love, your concern, your interest and your generosity. I am grateful beyond what I can express – and I am fighting this the best I can.

LOTS of LOVE – Kim

https://gofund.me/a4e0ab8d

04/08/2023

05/07/2023

Have you looked at this? Do you recognize the patterns you had to learn to survive are not serving you well as an adult. That armor is heavy. It is a discussion we will have have when you join us at our Beautifully Broken Women’s Retreat. The Event is posted on this page.
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26/06/2023

This may happen when you remove your sword of trauma. You will need to fill up those empty spaces that the wounds of trauma left open, with good things that bring peace, good relationships - and PLAY! Have you worked on the Be Your Own Hero workbook. It is one of the best journey's I have ever taken and I encourage you to give it a go.

14/04/2023

Pain that isn't transformed is transmitted....

09/04/2023

I love this video. (I love the song too, but this video shows me so much). Just watch Keala - she starts off beautifully soft.... When she sings the words; "look out 'cause here I come".... she pushes her music stand down and braves coming out from behind it. And then what does she do?..... She brings everyone with her. Just watch the piano player..... She brings Hugh Jackman to tears..... She is so powerful that she has nearly everyone on their feet to celebrate her, and themselves too. It is just extraordinarily beautiful.
I show this video at the opening of my retreat. My hope is that it moves the women attending to dig deep during the weekend and discover their very own sovereign power - so they also can spread it to others. Enjoy!

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15/10/2022

Never play down because someone thinks you are a bit much. Learn this little response: Then Go Find Less!